Here for help..

[GSnow]

Hello and happy new year.. I thought id finally sign up and write abit about myself...
I suffer with anxiety everyday and have done since my early teens.. I'm a 27year old male who lives a normal life work, 2kids, partner etc... Lately I have been more anxious than normal and I feel like I'm going to die soon... My main fear is getting ill and dying young (health anxiety I think).
I'm having some horrible symptoms everyday such as... Sweaty palms n feet, shakes, breathlessness, hot flushes/cold flushes, nausea, dizziness, rapid heartbeat, slight discomfort in heart area, not feeling myself (like dreamy) and theres more....
I can't get myself out of my negative mind frame from the moment I wake up I think about what the days gonna bring me and if I feel anxious, if I'm gonna faint/pass out or even worse die.... From that moment I feel on edge and panicky constantly checking my pulse and googling symptoms...
I still try my hardest to live a normal life for my family and friends hiding my pain behind my fake smiles but people are beginning to realise and I feel like they will just find me weird...
Last night (nye) I was locked in the bathroom for over an hour because I felt so on edge....
I'm not on no meds and only took propanol in 2008 for a short while.. I barely drink and have up smoking cigarettes over a month ago..
I need to get help but don't know where to begin...

[Tranquil]

Hi GSnow,
Find a doctor or a community health center with therapists and doctors who work with you on a sliding fee scale. Medications can do wonders for your symptoms and help you to feel like a new person again. There are better medications out there for you to try and I only suggest to you to ask the doctors to put you on the smallest possible dose. If one medication doesn't work, another will. You have to keep trying. I know it is scary but there is help out there and medication is not a death sentence. It can give you your life back when you find the right one. Once you are finding help with the medications, it is so much easier to work on your thought process and get help that way to have a healthier mindset and not fall back into the worry, fear, cycle. I hope this helps you. PLEASE know that there is help out there for you. Please take the first step and find a doctor or community behavioral health center. It is a new year and you can start to feel a new you soon. Best of luck to you.

[Tranquil]

I see you made a welcome already. Sorry about that. I want you to start reading Im-Suffering's posts. There is a lot of wisdom and insight and very helpful to this forum. I have pasted a link here for one of the posts made by him/her.

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/showthread.php?30380-If-you-are-currently-suffering-and-bewildered-trembling-or-anxious-Read-on

[GSnow]

Thank you soo much for your reply.. I have been feeling slightly better today chilling having a film day with my partner and kids.. I spoke to her about this today and she had me the same advise as you.. Tbh I think I have been scared to see a doctor or speak about this to anyone close to me as I get scared they would think I'm crazy or something... But constant fidgeting and checking my pulse in public or friends houses probs looks worse lol.
I am going to book a docs appointment straight away tomorrow and hopefully get back to feeling normal again... I get scared to even drive nowadays.. Everytime I leave the house to go to work I panic and get anxious about "what if" I don't make it home etc.... I need to get through this because its just getting worse...
I don't feel these symptoms when I keep myself busy or in the gym etc...

Will I get hooked on the meds?? Will I still be able to function an drive etc??

[Tranquil]

You'll need to talk to your doctor about the meds. Some people do need to stay on them for a long time. I've been on mine for 25+ years with barely an increase at times. Sometimes I decrease on my own. Some people can take them for a short time and then slowly come off of them without much return of anxiety. You have to at least try them or see what the doctor says. Please keep us posted. Again, I suggest that you stress to the doctor that you would like to take the smallest possible dose. For some reason, they do like to give larger doses. In my own experience, I think less is more or if you need to start higher, and then you're feeling better, you can always ask to taper. Don't be ashamed to take the medication if it helps. Best of luck to you and please keep us posted. Wishing you peace.

[GSnow]

I will defo keep you updated... I had a private message saying I might be lacking vitamin d3??? Could that help me with my anxieties and panic??

[Tranquil]

I don't know anything about the Vitamin D3. I've seen it here mentioned by some others on the site. I was wondering if you've thought of taking up some kind of meditation? It will help to calm your mind and your body. I've done the progressive thought and muscle relaxation years ago and it helped quite a bit. I'm getting back into it now and also mindfulness meditation. Even if you can only do 10-15 minutes it may help you as it gets easier to get into that mode once you've got the hang of it. I'm a bit surprised you haven't gotten any other responses. I'm not a pill pusher but it was the only thing that did give me my life back over 25 years ago and I suffered a very long time with one doc who did not want to prescribe me medications. I never thought I was going to feel normal again. I think if they are needed, then they are needed and to give them a try but going into it will full knowledge. I tend to research everything. Anyway, Vitamin D3 is not one I've researched. Sorry. Hope you're enjoying your weekend.