Slammed_vdub
12-06-2014, 07:34 PM
Long story short my anxiety was mostly under control for almost a year. A recent head related health issue came up and it all came back. Lately i just keep having feelings of feeling weird if that makes sense at all. Like i have to think about EVERY detail whether its with my body or something around me. For example my girlfriend is sleeping over tonight and i just feel scared and i cant distract myself from thinking about fear. Fear of what? I dont know, im just scared of being scared. Its like im so scared of loosing control or going absolutely loony. I dont know every aspect of my life is circled around thinking about feeling not right and thinking about feeling anxious. Its like i cant escape this time. I no longer worry so much about my health, i just worry because i think so much. Like why cant i just stop thinking and let everything flow around me without me having to think if it scares me. Its so bad that if i doze off for a few seconds i get scared because the TV is loud and i feel out of place. Its like a iahev to have a usual routine and i dont want that. Does this describe anxiety to anyone else or OCD? I just want to say fuck it to anxiety but it didnt work.