Hello!

[aml0017]

I'm new to this site but have posted on other sites/forums in the past from time to time. However those forums are obviously not very popular as lately posts/replies are rarely seen. Seems like this is a very active community, thought i'd give it a try.

I am 33 yo, female from South Louisiana. I have suffered anxiety and anxiety attacks since my teens (also have suffered some dysthmia/depression at times as well). Mostly generalized anxiety/social anxiety. I am a worrywart lol, even on my good days. Anxiety just makes it so much worse. Also, have some possible hormonal issues that I am currently being tested for (PCOS, metabolic syndrome) that may contribute to the problem. I have done therapy, meds at one point but I don't do either now.

For the past five years or so I would say my anxiety is still there but controllable with self talk/exercise/relaxation. I haven't even worried so much either. However in the past year or so I have noticed the worry and the anxiety becoming more intense again. It is usually triggered by change, any change no matter how trivial. for instance, I finally had to break down and buy a new tv (widescreen hdtv) after my old (read old fashioned) tv finally broke. I stressed so much about what tv to choose, and now getting it set up properly etc. I nearly had an attack. I seriously was considering just returning it and living without a tv. However that is exactly the kind of irrational responses i have had in the past. So trying to work through it now before it festers.

Will be reading other posts and getting acquainted. Looking forward to future posts!

[Im-Suffering]

I'm new to this site but have posted on other sites/forums in the past from time to time. However those forums are obviously not very popular as lately posts/replies are rarely seen. Seems like this is a very active community, thought i'd give it a try.

I am 33 yo, female from South Louisiana. I have suffered anxiety and anxiety attacks since my teens (also have suffered some dysthmia/depression at times as well). Mostly generalized anxiety/social anxiety. I am a worrywart lol, even on my good days. Anxiety just makes it so much worse. Also, have some possible hormonal issues that I am currently being tested for (PCOS, metabolic syndrome) that may contribute to the problem. I have done therapy, meds at one point but I don't do either now.

For the past five years or so I would say my anxiety is still there but controllable with self talk/exercise/relaxation. I haven't even worried so much either. However in the past year or so I have noticed the worry and the anxiety becoming more intense again. It is usually triggered by change, any change no matter how trivial. for instance, I finally had to break down and buy a new tv (widescreen hdtv) after my old (read old fashioned) tv finally broke. I stressed so much about what tv to choose, and now getting it set up properly etc. I nearly had an attack. I seriously was considering just returning it and living without a tv. However that is exactly the kind of irrational responses i have had in the past. So trying to work through it now before it festers.

Will be reading other posts and getting acquainted. Looking forward to future posts!

Welcome... Now, lets get right to it.

Why aren't your decisions good enough? Who was the critic that destroyed your confidence, and sense of self. And who was the 'true' worrywart, who's conditioning instilled these false beliefs that 'things always go wrong'. Or 'if it could go wrong it will', 'catch it before it festers'.

"you'll be in trouble". Who was the demeaning critic?

Fear of criticism destroys self esteem, initiative, self reliance, confidence, rips apart the sense of self and who you are, makes you shameful, guilty, needy, clingy, trusting of others decisions over your own, makes your tone of voice crack, soft spoken, weak willed, (afraid to speak ones mind) and strips you of character, self identity. Wishy washy in decisions, lack of firmness, doubt, worry, resentment, anger and ultimately hate, that turns against the self. (for feeling powerless).

That will be a good start.