bpd- help!

[MissO..]

Ok hi... i was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder by my psychiatrist who has discharged me because I failed to turn up to sessions (happens all the time)..but anyway lately I've been having so many bad thoughts including thoughts of suicide and death I've tried my hardest not to self harm these past days.. i have no one to talk to all the therapist counsellors psychiatrist I have seen have all discharged me because I hardly turned up.. i really like going to these session but there was always something stopping me from going i always thought that there was no point of going I became things will never get better. .. so since then I've just been keeping all my anger and pain bottled up inside... i even have dreams and these feeling that im going to die before next year amd it scares me so much I don't want to even leave my house or fall asleep... there's just soo many thing going on in my life right now that I just can't explain right now but im just really worried about myself honestly donno what I would do next! Please someone help

[JustaGal]

Ok hi... i was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder by my psychiatrist who has discharged me because I failed to turn up to sessions (happens all the time)..but anyway lately I've been having so many bad thoughts including thoughts of suicide and death I've tried my hardest not to self harm these past days.. i have no one to talk to all the therapist counsellors psychiatrist I have seen have all discharged me because I hardly turned up.. i really like going to these session but there was always something stopping me from going i always thought that there was no point of going I became things will never get better. .. so since then I've just been keeping all my anger and pain bottled up inside... i even have dreams and these feeling that im going to die before next year amd it scares me so much I don't want to even leave my house or fall asleep... there's just soo many thing going on in my life right now that I just can't explain right now but im just really worried about myself honestly donno what I would do next! Please someone help

Have you heard of DBT?
http://behavioraltech.org/resources/whatisdbt.cfm. They teach coping skills. I have heard that it is effective for BPD.

[MissO..]

Yh I have tried both cbt and dbt but I always manage to get discharged because I don't attend a lot of sessions. . I know that I have to so that I can get better but it's soo hard i just end up giving up.. don't really think there is anything I can do any more but thanks

[JustaGal]

Yh I have tried both cbt and dbt but I always manage to get discharged because I don't attend a lot of sessions. . I know that I have to so that I can get better but it's soo hard i just end up giving up.. don't really think there is anything I can do any more but thanks

Hi, There is always hope for you MissO, there are tons of examples here : )

" no point of going I became things will never get better" That is false, as you know. I hope you can get back into the DBT program and go through it. Maybe tell yourself you will commit and give it a year.