elephantsareneat
11-18-2014, 05:55 PM
Hey guys, I'm new here and thought I would share my story.
I began using MDMA two years ago. I have never touched another drug - not even weed! All of my friends were doing it and once I got into it, I felt as if it was the best decision I had ever made. MDMA gave me such strong feelings of empathy and love and physical satisfaction; it seemed innocent enough. I would do MDMA quite often- at least twice a month, 4 times at most. I never really suffered from comedowns either, so I figured it wasnt doing any harm.
In July of this year, I had reached a point where every time I tried to roll, I would end up sitting in bed in panic thinking that my heart was going to explode. Naturally, I figured I should just quit because it wasn't fun anymore.
A couple weeks after quitting cold turkey, I began getting panic attacks. I don't know if withdrawal from MDMA is a thing or not but I feel like I've been experiencing it for 5 months now. I have been to the ER 3 times- twice because I was experiencing all the signs of heart attacks. I wasnt, of course- I am a very healthy 22 year old female with an athletic physique who has had no prior health issues. The second time I went to the ER for chest pain, they made me stay overnight to monitor my heart, give me a CT scan, and an echocardiogram (ultrasound of the heart). The cardiologist said my heart was completely normal and sent me on my way. This was a little over a week ago and yesterday and today I was still experiencing heart attack symptoms, but I got my breathing in check and the symptoms have mostly gone away.
Getting breathing in check: Breathe through your lower lungs instead of your upper, like you naturally would in a state of panic. Put one hand on your chest and one hand on your stomach. As you inhale, your stomach should expand as your chest remains still. Push your stomach out while you breathe in. This GREATLY helps me.
I joined this site in hope for support and solace, as well as contributing to the support of others.
If I can give any advice, I would say DO NOT TOUCH MDMA. It is extremely mentally addicting, and it is the only thing in my life that I regret, as it has sent me into a life of fear and feeling trapped in my own mind.
If you have any things that have helped you particularly well, please let me know! :)
I began using MDMA two years ago. I have never touched another drug - not even weed! All of my friends were doing it and once I got into it, I felt as if it was the best decision I had ever made. MDMA gave me such strong feelings of empathy and love and physical satisfaction; it seemed innocent enough. I would do MDMA quite often- at least twice a month, 4 times at most. I never really suffered from comedowns either, so I figured it wasnt doing any harm.
In July of this year, I had reached a point where every time I tried to roll, I would end up sitting in bed in panic thinking that my heart was going to explode. Naturally, I figured I should just quit because it wasn't fun anymore.
A couple weeks after quitting cold turkey, I began getting panic attacks. I don't know if withdrawal from MDMA is a thing or not but I feel like I've been experiencing it for 5 months now. I have been to the ER 3 times- twice because I was experiencing all the signs of heart attacks. I wasnt, of course- I am a very healthy 22 year old female with an athletic physique who has had no prior health issues. The second time I went to the ER for chest pain, they made me stay overnight to monitor my heart, give me a CT scan, and an echocardiogram (ultrasound of the heart). The cardiologist said my heart was completely normal and sent me on my way. This was a little over a week ago and yesterday and today I was still experiencing heart attack symptoms, but I got my breathing in check and the symptoms have mostly gone away.
Getting breathing in check: Breathe through your lower lungs instead of your upper, like you naturally would in a state of panic. Put one hand on your chest and one hand on your stomach. As you inhale, your stomach should expand as your chest remains still. Push your stomach out while you breathe in. This GREATLY helps me.
I joined this site in hope for support and solace, as well as contributing to the support of others.
If I can give any advice, I would say DO NOT TOUCH MDMA. It is extremely mentally addicting, and it is the only thing in my life that I regret, as it has sent me into a life of fear and feeling trapped in my own mind.
If you have any things that have helped you particularly well, please let me know! :)