tired of panic attacks

[glenkim]

Hi my name is Glenda. I am 55 yrs old and have had these on and off for years. This round started with me caring for my ailing mother and she passed in july. Then my cousin passed a little over a month ago. Now my ex husband found out maybe close to a month ago he has ancer in every organ in his body and im trying to help him deal with it and I guess with all this my attacks started agin about a month ago. Plus getting ready to move and stressing about that. Im staying at my brothers and sisters but they don't have panic attacks and they don't understand how they make me feel. And its hard to talk to people sometimes about them. Im glad there I a ste like this so I don't feel alone and can reach out to people who know whats its like. So hello everyone.

[KellyMN]

I am new here also. good luck to both of us. :(

[glenkim]

nice to meet you. I hope we get better. this stuff is scary

[JustaGal]

Hi my name is Glenda. I am 55 yrs old and have had these on and off for years. This round started with me caring for my ailing mother and she passed in july. Then my cousin passed a little over a month ago. Now my ex husband found out maybe close to a month ago he has ancer in every organ in his body and im trying to help him deal with it and I guess with all this my attacks started agin about a month ago. Plus getting ready to move and stressing about that. Im staying at my brothers and sisters but they don't have panic attacks and they don't understand how they make me feel. And its hard to talk to people sometimes about them. Im glad there I a ste like this so I don't feel alone and can reach out to people who know whats its like. So hello everyone.

Hi,

Sorry for your loss. I didnt get much sympathy from family either.

[glenkim]

thank you justagal. I think thaats what really got the panic attacks going again. the first time I ever had one was when my dad died. that's been years ago. it seems like that is when they come back when I loose someone. but these things are terrible. when you don't have theem for a few years and they come baack thet are frightening. then the neck spams and naturally I think I have a brain tumor. lol always gotta think the worst first. and they are still going on but for aleve. ugh it really helps to get on here and talk about this. I was having an attack but its going away. whew. at least I know im not alone and someones out there to relate.

[Ryker]

Hi, nice to meet you.

Yep, anxiety and panic attacks are no fun whatsoever.

Look forward to seeing you around.

R.

[glenkim]

thanks ryker I will be around this site helps me a lot when im having one I grab my laptop. it works ;]

[JustaGal]

thank you justagal. I think thaats what really got the panic attacks going again. the first time I ever had one was when my dad died. that's been years ago. it seems like that is when they come back when I loose someone. but these things are terrible. when you don't have theem for a few years and they come baack thet are frightening. then the neck spams and naturally I think I have a brain tumor. lol always gotta think the worst first. and they are still going on but for aleve. ugh it really helps to get on here and talk about this. I was having an attack but its going away. whew. at least I know im not alone and someones out there to relate.

Yes, they are terrible, loss triggers anxiety for me too. The site has also really helped me see others with the same symptoms....so that I do not feel so different than everyone else. : )

[glenkim]

I wake up with anxiety every morning. I get on here and talk about it and it helps me to feel some better. I try to take my mind off of it.



















Another day another morning of anxiety. I am very grateful to have found this forum. Theres not too many people I can talk to about this. They always ask what I have them. I have a chemical imbalance. Well that makes no sense to them. So its nice to be able to talk about it with people who know exactly what im going through. does anyone have a ringing or buzzing in your ears. I don't know if this is from meds or not but since I have been taking them this started. And its kind of nerve racking but not too bad. Its not constant but its different. Well I got through the anxiety for now. So I shall start my day and get ready for work. Hoppe everyone has a good day.

[Im-Suffering]

I wake up with anxiety every morning. I get on here and talk about it and it helps me to feel some better. I try to take my mind off of it.

Another day another morning of anxiety. I am very grateful to have found this forum. Theres not too many people I can talk to about this. They always ask what I have them. I have a chemical imbalance. Well that makes no sense to them. So its nice to be able to talk about it with people who know exactly what im going through. does anyone have a ringing or buzzing in your ears. I don't know if this is from meds or not but since I have been taking them this started. And its kind of nerve racking but not too bad. Its not constant but its different. Well I got through the anxiety for now. So I shall start my day and get ready for work. Hoppe everyone has a good day.

Read : (understand, and re-read again, and yet again) :

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/showthread.php?30380-If-you-are-currently-suffering-and-bewildered-trembling-or-anxious-Read-on

The way you feel is no mystery.

Make a list of your top five current problems. Im going to say 3 have been long standing unresolved. You may feel powerless in your life and thus a certain amount of brooding over them (for some time), or you simply chose to bury them or forget them, so they seem hidden, even though the body continues to feel them, you see. Brooding over time destroys the nervous system, pay attention. Sensitizing the body to fear. Fear over tomorrows and a future you cannot control. Fear over the body's expression of those fears, period. That is anxiety.

The fear over the state you are in, coupled with the bodies natural expression of psychological repression.

Now, You also have unfinished grief regarding loss of loved ones, emotions you have not felt yet, that are too scary to question, or face. You have loss of love, mortality (your own), death, ill-health and the mental web of beliefs that go along with them. And while you try to explain your feelings, you must repress them because you believe ( a belief ) "no one understands me" and so forth. Repression of emotions along with the shock and trauma of illness and death, added to the unresolved problems and brooding created the genesis of the 'disorder' compounded by the then fear of your own body as it reacts to traumatic shocks.

You have work to do, self work and examination as we have just discussed. Only then can you be free.

I have chosen to give you this information this morning in particular, don't squander it. I have heard your cries of 'another morning'. And I am here to say there is hope, period.

That is all, Enough for a good start Glenda.

Someday soon, before bed, you will begin picturing a new life, and what you will do with your tomorrows, filled with joy, fulfillment, creativity, expression, and drift off to sleep. You experienced these imaginings as a child remember? When the days ahead were filled with expectation, period, NOT of illness, despondency and regret.

That is what you will do. And then you will awake every the mornings anew. You create your reality.

Period.

[optimax04]

nice to meet you. I hope we get better. this stuff is scary

Hi there. I am new here and I can see that everyone here shares a common experience... I've been through hell with it and I guess I would consider myself a survivor.

[glenkim]

well I have had 2 days of not so bad anxiety. don't know if that means the meds are finally starting to work or not. buut it has been nice. but I still am a little anxious. I will read that and do what you said.

[Minnoh]

Hello Glenda,

I'm new here too, and although I don't know enough to help you with your feelings of anxiety, I just had to comment and offer my heartfelt apologies. I can't imagine what you're going through right now. I joined this community hoping for advice and understanding... I hope you find it here, too.

Hugs from Saskatchewan.

[laurendoesntknow]

Good luck :) It'll be okay, the strongest tool we have (or so I believe) is positivity, and though its sometimes difficult to use, its there.
Things are clearly tough, and you have every right to be sad, but this is your life and you can control, to a big extent, how you live it. Smile as much as you can, and grab life by the balls.
Lara, (15)
Let me know if I can do anything. (that applies to anyone reading too!)

[glenkim]

today a little anxiety not too bad but my ears are ringing again. I don't know if its celexa or Xanax. I think the meds are helping the anxiety but its causing the ringing. ugh. it comes and goes. has anyone else went through this. I guess its just annoying. usually its low its loud now. well going up and down. any suggestions.

[glenkim]

i only take 1/2 a pill of 0.25 Xanax at night. don't like taking it though. but don't like the panic attacks either.

[glenkim]

I am having anxiety today because im out of Xanax and my doctor appointment isn't until the 19th. I take a low dose 0.25mg once a day. so im worrying about withdrawal. ugh. I took my last one yesterday. I have only been on them for about 6 weeks and for 4 weeks I took 1/2 a pill at night. then for 2 I took 1/2 in the morning and the other half at bedtime. I know people take more meds than me. so am I nuts for feeling this way.

[Im-Suffering]

I am having anxiety today because im out of Xanax and my doctor appointment isn't until the 19th. I take a low dose 0.25mg once a day. so im worrying about withdrawal. ugh. I took my last one yesterday. I have only been on them for about 6 weeks and for 4 weeks I took 1/2 a pill at night. then for 2 I took 1/2 in the morning and the other half at bedtime. I know people take more meds than me. so am I nuts for feeling this way.

You are not a nut. And that's the problem. You see yourself (and anxiety)as a nuisance generally speaking, and that touches every area of your life.(As you believe your parents saw you. You are speaking from a hurt child's perspective).

Advocate for yourself. You never had an obligation to anyone other than you. But , you always came last.

Why compare yourself to others, you are unique. This you never learned.

Have them call in a script enough until your next appt. You have a right to it, you see. Which should have been done a week ago, if you weren't such a bother.

Do you believe that? That you deserve?.., period.

Feel it.

[glenkim]

I called it in and im hoping he will do that. I see him Friday. Wish me luck

[glenkim]

And yes I believe that

[Im-Suffering]

And yes I believe that

These experiences are triggers. That's all they are. It's not about the medicine or anything exterior.

It's about personal growth.

If your thoughts don't make you feel good, examine them. You can change the beliefs you've held onto so tightly for years. It's time for you to heal..you've got some years ahead of you now, it's time to make them about you. And I'm getting this message from a family member.

[glenkim]

i tried to lay down and dozed off and woke up to another panic attack. i talked to 911 dispatcher and they talked me thru it. i feel some better. im soo tired of these things. im taking the celexa have been for 6 weeks so they should be working by now. i don't want to go to the hospital cause i cant afford to. i don't know why when i go to sleep and wake up i have an attack. Not always a big one but i do have the anxiety. I have a hard time trying to explain myself but im trying my best. But i am glad to have found this website. Just talking about it helps.

[JustaGal]

i tried to lay down and dozed off and woke up to another panic attack. i talked to 911 dispatcher and they talked me thru it. i feel some better. im soo tired of these things. im taking the celexa have been for 6 weeks so they should be working by now. i don't want to go to the hospital cause i cant afford to. i don't know why when i go to sleep and wake up i have an attack. Not always a big one but i do have the anxiety. I have a hard time trying to explain myself but im trying my best. But i am glad to have found this website. Just talking about it helps.

I have gotten anxiety after taking a nap. I think it is partly due to the body adjusting to waking up, adrenaline, and other hormones that are out of whack anyway, then we are over sensitive to the natural function of what happens in the process of the body getting ready to get up and move.

I would sit and do some deep breathing... maybe follow a u-tube video on it. Deep breathing tells your body it is out of danger etc...

[glenkim]

well some good days some bad. I woke up a little while ago with anxiety again. its weird cause I went to my doctor today and felt good then tonight I went to sleep and boom woke up with one. I seriously hope sometime the medicine gets these under control. I know the medicine is working though cause im not nearly as bad as I was 6 weeks ago. my doctor wanted to raise my celexa up to 40mg but im gonna try the 20 a little longer. I think its working its just me being anxious. but my silly butt forgot to tell him about the ear ringing. I could of kicked myself. How do you forget something like that. lol Especially since its almost constantly going on. Just louder sometime than other times. But I can call and tell him Monday. Doubt they can do anything about it its just a side effect of one of the meds. And I think its mainly my left ear whatever that means. Well I feel better now. Going to try to get some rest.

[Im-Suffering]

well some good days some bad. I woke up a little while ago with anxiety again. its weird cause I went to my doctor today and felt good then tonight I went to sleep and boom woke up with one. I seriously hope sometime the medicine gets these under control. I know the medicine is working though cause im not nearly as bad as I was 6 weeks ago. my doctor wanted to raise my celexa up to 40mg but im gonna try the 20 a little longer. I think its working its just me being anxious. but my silly butt forgot to tell him about the ear ringing. I could of kicked myself. How do you forget something like that. lol Especially since its almost constantly going on. Just louder sometime than other times. But I can call and tell him Monday. Doubt they can do anything about it its just a side effect of one of the meds. And I think its mainly my left ear whatever that means. Well I feel better now. Going to try to get some rest.

From my perspective, this is a good post. Things are moving forward in a positive direction.

Make sure you have no doubts.

Should doubt creep in immediately address the feeling. Honor it, And then choose to remain hopeful and continue to picture positive results. Yes, amidst the doubt. Not as a lie, but as a game. "Even though today I feel doubtful of my progress, I will continue to picture a healthy me, doing, being expressing, and living life as I wish. If this doesn't work I have lost nothing"

This game of visualization should be daily for some time, for 30 days. Soon joy and health will not seem like a lie, but will be reality. This method of creation was used to both bring anxiety into your experience initially, and also in maintaining it. (Visualization backed by beliefs).

Now to address the 2 issues:

The panic upon waking is not interfering with sleep. So sleep is rejuvenating the body and mind. Because you are focused on panic, it has become the framework from which you experience life. And since you create your reality, once your eyes open, that is your experience. The panic is not there until you awaken, although it would seem that you wake to it (giving the framework continuity). You will always wake up to your created reality. Happy, sad, excited. Before bed, you might try (while in bed), picturing a bright morning, waking up excited for the day, and with hopeful expectations that this day will be better. "Tomorrow will be better than today, I am healthier, wealthier, and wiser". Then drift to sleep.

Secondly, the ringing of the ears. That will go away. Continue forward with your plan (and the doctors) and simply make a call if you forget to mention anything. Be kind to yourself. Learning this is a major purpose of the anxiety itself. And for most people, their life purpose.

Peace

[glenkim]

Thank I'm suffering. My siter asked me if I wanted to go to the sate mental hospital. That hurt my feelings. I think she was playing but it still hurt. Cause im not all happy and bubbly like normal. I'm trying to get there. Just lastnight and today have been bad. Today is slowly getting better. She doesn't have this so I know he can't relate. Shes always here for me though. Just kinda shocked me. but I might call and see about a therapist I don't know. I talked to my doctor about it he said its a good idea. I just get mad because I was doing pretty good most of the week. And then bam back again. I'm tired of calling ask a nurse so they talk me through it. But I will try what you said. Thank you.

[Mss.stang]

Thanks, I am desperately trying to find the book by Amelina Linsdale can you help? The link to download does not work. Im suffering from extreme anxiety attacks the worst was last night at Walmart of all places. Took be about 3 hrs to really pull it together with the meds. I need some additional support and thought this forum and book would help alot :-(

[lexi3309]

I definitely can relate! My husband doesn't understand what I am going through and often times gets very aggravated with me when I am in the middle of an attack. I am so glad to have found so many people that I can relate to and seeing people write exactly what I am feeling is such a comfort in a weird way. I hope you find comfort here as well and find a road to recovery. Anxiety/panic attacks are debilitating and I have come to realize only those who have experienced it will understand.

[glenkim]

it is very hard to try to get people to understand what we go through. they are not experiencing this so we are nuts to them. I have been blessed to find this site. you will find this forum helpful I know I do. I have gotten better and the attacks are less frequent and I jump on here when they come. it calms me down. wish you the best lexi

[alex42]

Panic attacks can be debilitating. I've had them for years. A little over 20 years now. Went into "remission" for a few years where I didn't get any. Which was wonderful. Thought I was "cured"... Went to therapists, still seeing one. It helps to have a place to come to to discuss it. This forum is great for that. And yeah, people who don't get them have a hard time trying to understand them. It is definitely a chemical imbalance AND fear. But it's not just ONE thing to diagnose. It can also be a genetic thing. My 15 year old daughter now has them. Without me ever discussing mine with her. I tried to hide it from her. Well, now we are trying to get through this together. There IS a light at the end of the tunnel. There is.