EllieNor2014
11-11-2014, 11:08 AM
Hello there!
I've been dealing with anxiety with some time, and now that I am in a new environment to start graduate school, I am relapsing again.
I am not really sure what is wrong with me, but often I would feel to stressed out to get anything done or to meet new people. I am struggling academically and I feel like a failure. I am alone most of the time. My mental deterioration is also having an impact on my physical health. For instance, this morning, I woke up but I could not get out of bed. I felt like I could not breathe and my stomach really hurt. Tomorrow I've decided to see a psychiatrist to see if they can figure our what is wrong with me. I've been through this before when I first started university as a transfer student. Now it is happening again. Anxiety takes up a lot of my time and energy. By the time I have finished dealing with my mental state, I am often too tired to do anything else. I feel like everything is going out of control. I am not sure what to do. I really want to get better and I've been trying so hard. But now, here I am.
My family is already tired of hearing about my problems. They think I am too negative. I know that. I am sorry that they have to hear it. I really don't want to be a burden to them. They are sick of me. Frankly speaking, I am sick of myself, too. It's been so very hard.
But I've not given up.
There is still hope and I intend to find it.
I don't understand why the path to recovery, to happiness, to success is so hard. How does other people do it? Why can't I do it as well?
I am sorry if my post is a little bit too negative. I am not in a good mental state right now.
I hope I will be better soon. : )
To end this post on a happier note, here's another smiley face for all those who are struggling right now. : )
It may be hard and recovery may seem impossible, but we are still here and we are still strong enough to fight.
All the best.
I've been dealing with anxiety with some time, and now that I am in a new environment to start graduate school, I am relapsing again.
I am not really sure what is wrong with me, but often I would feel to stressed out to get anything done or to meet new people. I am struggling academically and I feel like a failure. I am alone most of the time. My mental deterioration is also having an impact on my physical health. For instance, this morning, I woke up but I could not get out of bed. I felt like I could not breathe and my stomach really hurt. Tomorrow I've decided to see a psychiatrist to see if they can figure our what is wrong with me. I've been through this before when I first started university as a transfer student. Now it is happening again. Anxiety takes up a lot of my time and energy. By the time I have finished dealing with my mental state, I am often too tired to do anything else. I feel like everything is going out of control. I am not sure what to do. I really want to get better and I've been trying so hard. But now, here I am.
My family is already tired of hearing about my problems. They think I am too negative. I know that. I am sorry that they have to hear it. I really don't want to be a burden to them. They are sick of me. Frankly speaking, I am sick of myself, too. It's been so very hard.
But I've not given up.
There is still hope and I intend to find it.
I don't understand why the path to recovery, to happiness, to success is so hard. How does other people do it? Why can't I do it as well?
I am sorry if my post is a little bit too negative. I am not in a good mental state right now.
I hope I will be better soon. : )
To end this post on a happier note, here's another smiley face for all those who are struggling right now. : )
It may be hard and recovery may seem impossible, but we are still here and we are still strong enough to fight.
All the best.