My treatment. It's getting better :)

[MyAnxietyHealing]

I want to share my story with you guys. I'm getting better, so I thought I needed to tell you how I'm doing that.

I wrote a blog post about it. Everything's here:
myanxietyhealing.wordpress.com

[Im-Suffering]

I want to share my story with you guys. I'm getting better, so I thought I needed to tell you how I'm doing that.

I wrote a blog post about it. Everything's here:
myanxietyhealing.wordpress.com

Your story is more important than hits to wordpress, so ill do others a favor who otherwise would not click over, but who would benefit from it.

Your story -


"My childhood was filled with anxiety caused by my father’s bad habits. He hated when something wasn’t perfect. That is, when I made something wrong he shouted at me and added some words about how I’m stupid or worth nothing. I was also born prematurely, probably because my mother was beat when she was pregnant with me.

As a result from an early age I had unexpressed anxiety inside me. My hands were lightly shaking all the time, so I had a problem to put sugar into my cup of tea. In addition when I had a stressful situation my hands were shaking strongly.

After strong stress during High School Diploma Examinations I felt much worse. I had looping thoughts, more anxiety etc. Therefore I decided to go to psychiatrist. I had a few visits, but it was getting worse. I had suicidal thoughts, so I thought it was a good idea to tell her. She told me to get some therapy and gave me the address where should I go.

I had very low self-esteem. The 1-year-long therapy helped me with that, but anxiety remained. I lost my job, so I needed to get another one. I found my new job in the capital city. Therefore I had to quit my therapy. At the beginning everything was fine, but after some time my nightmare began.

Anxiety started to “spread”, e. g. when I was searching for something quickly and anxiety appeared, then I had anxiety when I was reading something.

Some time later when I switched to another medication at night, many unexpressed feelings came out and I felt really bad. Next day I couldn’t sleep because anxiety attached to lying on bed. Then it spreaded to sitting and more. Anxiety was almost everywhere.

That was a terrible time for me and I didn’t know what to do. I had my therapy before. It didn’t help me much, so I didn’t believe that another one will change anything. It was so bad that even though I didn’t have much hope, I went to get second therapy with different therapist.

I asked my therapist about what I have to do to be healthy. He told me that I needed to express my feelings. I thought it was about facial expressions or crying, things like that. He told me that I needed to say what I feel. Therefore I started to say what I feel in my mind. It was like “I feel anxiety, I feel anxiety” and I was being focused on this feeling. When I wasn’t concentrating I didn’t help much. I just did that and after a few days I could start watching TV again (I had anxiety while watching TV too).

It was getting better, but very slowly. I did this “I feel anxiety” expression a lot. Next week I told my therapist what I did and that it was getting better. He said that I could ask myself “why do I feel that”, so I did. Next week I was saying “I feel anxiety, because…” and I was digging in my memory why I feel that. I was searching in my memory to find what happened in the past that I feel this anxiety now. I moved forward and added why I don’t have to feel anxiety now.

At that moment there where 3 steps:
◾what I feel,
◾why (mostly because of the past),
◾the reason that I don’t need to be afraid anymore.



There are more things that I learnt, like how should I deal with anger, but it’s too much for this post. I thank God for saving my life and giving me this help. It took me 6 years to start feeling better. It was a nightmare."