Maxine
11-05-2014, 07:24 AM
Hi. I hope this post finds everyone having a good day and in a good space. I'm not sure how to start. You'd think it would be easy for me to pour my heart out on here because I don't know any of you and probably never will other than through this place. Nut I have such severe trust issues I'm finding it hard to come up with the words to say. I struggle with depression and anxiety. I've started to figure out my depression cycle and its really discouraging. I have 1 and a half to 2 weeks of severe depression every month. Then mild to moderate depression for the rest of the time. I have a history with psychotropic medications and it terrifies me to think about using them again. But after talking with my therapist and my boyfriend and doing a lot of thinking on my own I'm coming to the conclusion that I might have to. For now anyway. But I'm still unsure. The last time I was severely over medicated and it made me go crazy, literally. I lost everything, I as homeless and making horrible life choices and putting myself at risk constantly. At any rate, I'm not sure why I'm writing all of this or what I hope to accomplish by doing so. Sending love, light, and positive, calming energy to all.