vivienne1
11-03-2014, 06:25 AM
Hi
My first post here and I'm looking for some advice as I dont really have anyone to talk too and I'm scared my panic attacks have skewed my thinking.
I was diagnosed with PTSD around five years ago.I was in quite a state then. Nightmares, panic attacks that I can only describe as sheer terror and insomnia. I also developed OCD which showed as compulsive thoughts and counting in my head amongst other things. I lost my job of 20 odd years. But after counselling and medication I got better and returned to work. First part time and then full time for two years.
As my partner isn't well I moved jobs last year. On the whole I love it. It's a good job. However...
Basically one of the directors at work hates me. Dont know why, just seems to have taken a dislike to me and is never off my back for silly little things. I haven't had any dealings with him so dont know why he doesn't like me but he goes out his way to make my life miserable. It isn't a work issue, I've spoken to senior staff and no one has a problem with my work. But over the last fortnight my partner was in hospital and he seems to have gone out his way to pick on me. He knows this and I get the feeling he's daring me to walk. He didn't want me taken on as I've been very honest about my mental health history and I suspect he thinks he can goad me into leaving. He's probably right.
It's being going on for weeks and I had a bit of a breakdown over the weekend at the thought of going in so I've phoned in sick. My panic attacks have been so bad and I haven't really slept for a week. Doctor cant see me til later in the week but has left me a prescription to ease the panic attacks til then.
He's very senior in a large company so isn't going anywhere, he also heads up HR!
I guess my options are leave, try stick it out while looking for something else or go off sick and try to think a bit more rationally when I've calmed down.
I'm terrified of being back in that place I was five years ago... and dont want to go back there.
Is there any way of heading this off or am I on a slippery slope while I remain working there? How do people cope with recurrences? I've been rather silly in thinking that it wouldn't be an issue again as I was doing so well.
My first post here and I'm looking for some advice as I dont really have anyone to talk too and I'm scared my panic attacks have skewed my thinking.
I was diagnosed with PTSD around five years ago.I was in quite a state then. Nightmares, panic attacks that I can only describe as sheer terror and insomnia. I also developed OCD which showed as compulsive thoughts and counting in my head amongst other things. I lost my job of 20 odd years. But after counselling and medication I got better and returned to work. First part time and then full time for two years.
As my partner isn't well I moved jobs last year. On the whole I love it. It's a good job. However...
Basically one of the directors at work hates me. Dont know why, just seems to have taken a dislike to me and is never off my back for silly little things. I haven't had any dealings with him so dont know why he doesn't like me but he goes out his way to make my life miserable. It isn't a work issue, I've spoken to senior staff and no one has a problem with my work. But over the last fortnight my partner was in hospital and he seems to have gone out his way to pick on me. He knows this and I get the feeling he's daring me to walk. He didn't want me taken on as I've been very honest about my mental health history and I suspect he thinks he can goad me into leaving. He's probably right.
It's being going on for weeks and I had a bit of a breakdown over the weekend at the thought of going in so I've phoned in sick. My panic attacks have been so bad and I haven't really slept for a week. Doctor cant see me til later in the week but has left me a prescription to ease the panic attacks til then.
He's very senior in a large company so isn't going anywhere, he also heads up HR!
I guess my options are leave, try stick it out while looking for something else or go off sick and try to think a bit more rationally when I've calmed down.
I'm terrified of being back in that place I was five years ago... and dont want to go back there.
Is there any way of heading this off or am I on a slippery slope while I remain working there? How do people cope with recurrences? I've been rather silly in thinking that it wouldn't be an issue again as I was doing so well.