namaste87
10-23-2014, 08:13 AM
Hello
I have been dealing with anxiety since I was a kid. Now I have been on sick leave for about 2-3 years, and at the moment I am looking for a workplace were I can do my work-practice (or what's it called in english?). I've been better and I've been worse, but now, for some months, it has been worse. I have a psychologist who I now see once a month, and I think that's one of the things that's so hard for me - to trust my self and deal with my anxiety myself, with the tools I've got from my psychologist.
But it's so damn hard. It's so so so damn hard. For some weeks now, I have been feeling that I won't ever be able to live a happy life. I have to much problems, I won't meet a lover who can deal with that, I have to much problems with feeling lonley and so on, I worrie to much to be able to have a happy life. And I know that this is catastrophizing, but i belive in it anyway. I just don't see any way out. And it's so damn hard to keep on struggle even though I feel this way. How, and WHY would I belive in that life will be good, when it has always been so very hard for me? I've had much happiness in my life, but always with the companion anxiety and worry. And these last years I've been dealing with more of the bad than the good.
I am getting help, I have good friends and I eat good, do my yoga, I use my "tools", I work out and so on.
I have been dealing with anxiety since I was a kid. Now I have been on sick leave for about 2-3 years, and at the moment I am looking for a workplace were I can do my work-practice (or what's it called in english?). I've been better and I've been worse, but now, for some months, it has been worse. I have a psychologist who I now see once a month, and I think that's one of the things that's so hard for me - to trust my self and deal with my anxiety myself, with the tools I've got from my psychologist.
But it's so damn hard. It's so so so damn hard. For some weeks now, I have been feeling that I won't ever be able to live a happy life. I have to much problems, I won't meet a lover who can deal with that, I have to much problems with feeling lonley and so on, I worrie to much to be able to have a happy life. And I know that this is catastrophizing, but i belive in it anyway. I just don't see any way out. And it's so damn hard to keep on struggle even though I feel this way. How, and WHY would I belive in that life will be good, when it has always been so very hard for me? I've had much happiness in my life, but always with the companion anxiety and worry. And these last years I've been dealing with more of the bad than the good.
I am getting help, I have good friends and I eat good, do my yoga, I use my "tools", I work out and so on.