work anxiety destroying my life

[Mike Bryan]

So here it goes Im 36 an cant hold a job. Ever since I was 16 i only w
worked a job for less than a yr. Lately my time has gotten shorter . I held my last job for a week. My anxiety , low condfidence, and ocd get the better of me. The bills are piling up I dont know what to do. Its almost like I get mad at my employer for hiring me because of the stress thats caused. Likewise when Im out of work i get angry because I cant find a Job. Basically wo a good job i cant have a bf or do anything to further my life. I feel damned if i do and damned if i dont.

[Ryker]

Hi Mike,

What sort of jobs do you do?

[Im-Suffering]

So here it goes Im 36 an cant hold a job. Ever since I was 16 i only w
worked a job for less than a yr. Lately my time has gotten shorter . I held my last job for a week. My anxiety , low condfidence, and ocd get the better of me. The bills are piling up I dont know what to do. Its almost like I get mad at my employer for hiring me because of the stress thats caused. Likewise when Im out of work i get angry because I cant find a Job. Basically wo a good job i cant have a bf or do anything to further my life. I feel damned if i do and damned if i dont.


This person is on automatic pilot from childhood conditioning. The OP is doing what it subconsciously was told to do rather than what it wants to do. In a real sense it has not developed any sense of self even at 36. The OP is still a small child following the directives of the caregiver.

It is likely nothing was ever good enough, nothing was 'right' and there was not much if any appreciation, validity, acceptance, encouragement, rather discipline, disapproval, criticism, and lack of love and honor for who this person is, as an individual.

Now without a sense of self, and too old to follow mom and dad literally, the OP has no identity to speak of on its own, and there or fakes each attempt to work or have some sort of fulfillment. Each attempt is temporary then and with each is the cry and blame 'look what you've done to me, I can't even do menial tasks'

The OP needs to heal the inner child, and work to separate the self from the criticism enough to feel its way around and build its own identity, what he/she was meant for, passions, desires. The OP knows what it loves, wants, but is simply so conflicted it cannot see clearly.

That is enough food for thought.