anxietyrob
10-15-2014, 02:56 AM
Mid 30s Professional male, married with kids a pretty normal guy.... or so I thought.
Anxiety has been in my family, I've done well to avoid it for so long, but I guess it was inevitable. I didn't want to speak to anybody as I guess I like to think im the strong silent type. Didn't even tell my wife until id been to the doctors..... subsequently put on 30mg for Panic disorder.
I've always had mild anxiety but nothing out of the ordinary, not keen on heights, hate blood, don't like lifts or wide open spaces (how contradictory is that!)
Then one day it all intensified. Started feeling really uneasy doing things I would normally do, or have done in the past. Has anybody else had these???
1. Feeling of being really small under the wide open sky - was worse on hills such as driving over the Scottish borders.
2. I wont even go in a lift!
3. Public toilets (say MacDonald's) check the lock on the door doesn't stick before locking the door, fear of being trapped.
4. The ferry trip was the most un-comfy feeling of my life, being trapped on board (despite doing this probably a dozen times in the past)
5. Flying ..... don't even go there!
6. I need my safe place (home)
7. I'm ok day to day in my local area, if I travel with work I panic all the way to my location, then im fine when I get there (say in a meeting), and nearly fine coming home, well not as bad as going!! (even if im staying overnight im ok in my room etc, I've done this countless times)
8. When in the wide open wilderness all I really want is to be contained in a small room / building? am I slightly agoraphobic perhaps??
Anyway.... WOW, I've written it down for people to judge me, so please be honest...
cheers
Anxiety has been in my family, I've done well to avoid it for so long, but I guess it was inevitable. I didn't want to speak to anybody as I guess I like to think im the strong silent type. Didn't even tell my wife until id been to the doctors..... subsequently put on 30mg for Panic disorder.
I've always had mild anxiety but nothing out of the ordinary, not keen on heights, hate blood, don't like lifts or wide open spaces (how contradictory is that!)
Then one day it all intensified. Started feeling really uneasy doing things I would normally do, or have done in the past. Has anybody else had these???
1. Feeling of being really small under the wide open sky - was worse on hills such as driving over the Scottish borders.
2. I wont even go in a lift!
3. Public toilets (say MacDonald's) check the lock on the door doesn't stick before locking the door, fear of being trapped.
4. The ferry trip was the most un-comfy feeling of my life, being trapped on board (despite doing this probably a dozen times in the past)
5. Flying ..... don't even go there!
6. I need my safe place (home)
7. I'm ok day to day in my local area, if I travel with work I panic all the way to my location, then im fine when I get there (say in a meeting), and nearly fine coming home, well not as bad as going!! (even if im staying overnight im ok in my room etc, I've done this countless times)
8. When in the wide open wilderness all I really want is to be contained in a small room / building? am I slightly agoraphobic perhaps??
Anyway.... WOW, I've written it down for people to judge me, so please be honest...
cheers