J Michael
10-12-2014, 05:20 PM
Having general anxiety is like finding out that once every week since you were born, your mother has been savagely beaten and will continue to be for the rest of your life. It is something that has always been a fact and there has never been and never will be anything that you can do about it. It’s inevitable.
You try to tell people about it but all they tell you is it’s no big deal and to just get over it. Thoughts will go through your mind like hey, maybe my mother getting beaten once a week isn’t really something I should be worrying about. But you will always go back to worrying about it because she’s your mother and she being beaten once a week for Christ’s sake. You can never just sweep it under the rug and get over it. Doing so will be admitting that you don’t love or care about your mother which just can’t be possible.
Then you think hey, maybe I should just decide that I don’t care if she’s being beaten because worrying about this is ruining my life. I can’t focus on anything else, i can’t enjoy things like i did before i found out about this, I mean what kind of a person am I if I go out with my friends/get drunk/have a good time when i am fully aware of my mother’s horrible situation? My relationships are falling apart, I’m losing my basic social skills along with my sanity because nothing else matters to me but this. You try indifference but the best you can do is temporarily mask your emotions from the outside world, it’s impossible to completely ignore what your mother is going through.
No, I don’t give a crap about what happened on your favorite show last night or if you think that girl is hot, what is wrong with you man? how can I possibly let something so insignificant and trivial occupy even the smallest portion of my thoughts when my mother is in such pain!?
You try to tell people about it but all they tell you is it’s no big deal and to just get over it. Thoughts will go through your mind like hey, maybe my mother getting beaten once a week isn’t really something I should be worrying about. But you will always go back to worrying about it because she’s your mother and she being beaten once a week for Christ’s sake. You can never just sweep it under the rug and get over it. Doing so will be admitting that you don’t love or care about your mother which just can’t be possible.
Then you think hey, maybe I should just decide that I don’t care if she’s being beaten because worrying about this is ruining my life. I can’t focus on anything else, i can’t enjoy things like i did before i found out about this, I mean what kind of a person am I if I go out with my friends/get drunk/have a good time when i am fully aware of my mother’s horrible situation? My relationships are falling apart, I’m losing my basic social skills along with my sanity because nothing else matters to me but this. You try indifference but the best you can do is temporarily mask your emotions from the outside world, it’s impossible to completely ignore what your mother is going through.
No, I don’t give a crap about what happened on your favorite show last night or if you think that girl is hot, what is wrong with you man? how can I possibly let something so insignificant and trivial occupy even the smallest portion of my thoughts when my mother is in such pain!?