Not doing so well

[Jen Walding]

Hi...I'm new here....
I have GAD...have had for a while. Generally I can handle it...I know when a panic attack is coming on and I know how to handle it.
I've started having problems though at work. After 6 years in my job I've suddenly started making mistakes....which affect clients.
And I have no idea why....I know what I'm doing but sometimes I don't pay enough attention and things go wrong.
I've already had a verbal warning from my boss...who doesn't know I have GAD. I'm too nervous to tell him.
I want to understand why I'm suddenly screwing up.
I'm not under a huge amount of stress...I have a good relationship.....I have things on my mind but they're not major.
When I screw up though I get bad anxiety attacks. They worry my fiancé.
I've had counselling, I'm on meds.
I just need....to understand

[Surfside]

Welcome Jen Walding :)

I hope you will find the support here you are looking for.

GAD can be a tricky one, as you know.

I wish I had better advise to offer you.

Best wishes, and stay strong.

-SS

[Jen Walding]

All good

Thank you :)

[melissa90]

Hello Jen,
Sorry to hear you aren't doing so well. I had a similar situation at my last job where I had been doing quite well then all of a sudden I wasn't, and errors started happening an I had received a few warnings. I chose to risk it and let my employer know of my anxiety and found them to be quite supportive.

Hang in there,

Melissa90

[Jen Walding]

Do you know why it started happening?
Cause it seems so out of nowhere

[melissa90]

Like you I wasn't sure what had changed, it just did. It's a frustrating situation, I think I had just gotten into a cycle of anxiety then lack of sleep followed by more anxiety.

Sorry I am not too helpful

[Jen Walding]

No...it's good to know I'm not alone in this. That other people have gone through the same thing.

[melissa90]

You are most definitely not alone --- I thought I had completely lost my brains when it happened to me.

[Jen Walding]

Kind of feels like that! Like I suddenly don't know what I'm doing anymore.
And no matter how many times people tell me I won't be fired, my anxiety feels like I will.
I really hate letting people down.

[melissa90]

I know it can feel like that and oh gosh I know exactly what you are talking about with the anxiety of being fired and fear of letting people down (I finally had to quit because the anxiety of that for me got too bad and I could no longer cope)

[Jen Walding]

What about your new job though? Is that going ok?

[melissa90]

sadly I found myself fairly housebound for awhile after -- I kind of had to work back my confidence again. My goal is to be back working and a semi functional human being once again fairly shortly

[Jen Walding]

My confidence really has taken a beating!
Good that you feel like you're nearly there :)

[A123456]

I have agoraphobia. Just diagnosed a week ago. If you find out how to get over it PLEASE let me know

[1Bluerose68]

I notice that when I feel anxious I have mini Brain attacks. Like I'll go to change the trash and I'll forget to put a new trash bag into the trash can. Or just stupid lil things that I shouldn't forget to do next....I forget. I use an asthma inhaler, but i dont really have asthma. i use it to enhance my O2 intake and it seems to help my brain to remember to breath better and that helps me to think more Clearly. The hot weather makes me feel extra dull too. So I try not to do anything when it's too hot. I think certain meds do have cloudy side effects though. I felt yucky on a med w/ HCL at the end of it. So I dont take anything w/ HCL at the end of it. just the XL type.......Caffeine pills help me to think more clearly too. I take the type w/ hoodia , it also has a calming affect w/o the cloudiness.