Slammed Vdub
10-05-2014, 12:05 AM
Hello everyone,
So i have had health anxiety for a long long time. Illness, and specifically vomiting for some reason terrify me. I never used to be that bad, but lately i have been so far off i dont even know what it feels like to be me anymore. I constantly live in fear. The last few year were fine, just off and on typical anxiety. It seems like ever since Ebola has struck, it was the end of a calm worry free me. 24/7 illness is on my mind. I could feel perfectly fine all day, then all o the sudden ill get a random pain somewhere and the first thing to come to my mind is that im sick. But of course its just my anxiety. No i can tell myself that the entire time during an episode, but with my OCD that does no good. If i have some pain of feel off in ANY way, i will eat less and be on edge. I will sleep in my clothes at night and shake myself to bed with the lights on. I dont know why that comforts me but it does. So on top of the stomach issues that im deeply scared of, now i have Ebola to fear.Today i had some intestinal discomfort and all of the sudden i compare it to Ebola. Which, grants me other symptoms and i feel worse and just freak myself out more. Im stuck in the cycle again and i just want to feel normal again. Someone who can enjoy life and all of its glory, not fear everyday. I cant hang out with friends the same and im not the same at work. The only distraction i found was video games as a temporary escape...
Can anyone relate?
So i have had health anxiety for a long long time. Illness, and specifically vomiting for some reason terrify me. I never used to be that bad, but lately i have been so far off i dont even know what it feels like to be me anymore. I constantly live in fear. The last few year were fine, just off and on typical anxiety. It seems like ever since Ebola has struck, it was the end of a calm worry free me. 24/7 illness is on my mind. I could feel perfectly fine all day, then all o the sudden ill get a random pain somewhere and the first thing to come to my mind is that im sick. But of course its just my anxiety. No i can tell myself that the entire time during an episode, but with my OCD that does no good. If i have some pain of feel off in ANY way, i will eat less and be on edge. I will sleep in my clothes at night and shake myself to bed with the lights on. I dont know why that comforts me but it does. So on top of the stomach issues that im deeply scared of, now i have Ebola to fear.Today i had some intestinal discomfort and all of the sudden i compare it to Ebola. Which, grants me other symptoms and i feel worse and just freak myself out more. Im stuck in the cycle again and i just want to feel normal again. Someone who can enjoy life and all of its glory, not fear everyday. I cant hang out with friends the same and im not the same at work. The only distraction i found was video games as a temporary escape...
Can anyone relate?