ClaudiaStapleton
09-17-2014, 12:14 AM
Hey all :) over the past month I've had to deal with anxiety. Its started when my boyfriend of six months who I love so much died in a seizure(he's epileptic) and came back to life. We're long distance so I wasn't physically there for it, it was very scary. So glad he's alive >3. The next day I was walking home from college, and long story short a 40 year old guy knocked me down and tried to rape me. Thankfully, I was able to get away. After that, I started having digestive troubles and anxiety about my health. Since then, I'm finding all these small things wrong with my body and am convinced they are signs of life threatening conditions. I also occasionally get a fear of dying, like last night when I didn't sleep for ages thinking my chest pains where a sign of a heart attack. I've had one full blown panic attack: most painful chest pains of my life, couldn't breathe shaking all over. Anxiety is affecting my whole life now. I can't enjoy things I love anymore, like gaming reading or spending time with my bf as much. Everything I find wrong I'm sure is deadly, and half the time I feel like I am dying or will die and I'm just waiting for the other foot to drop. Even though I'm not overly anxious atm, as I saw the doc today and got an ECG(my heart is fine) I'm still worried that my chest pains I am feeling(occasionally more like a pressure) and sore arms(achy sore) are signs of an impending heart attack, despite the fact that I've had these symptoms for a month nothing has come of it and it's highly unlikely at my age(18) to get one. I'm going back to see the doc about anxiety tomorrow. I just want to feel like me again. Joining here seems like a great idea as I won't have to feel so alone dealing with this. I look forward to talking to you guys and thanks for reading :)