dreamydaze
09-05-2014, 06:58 AM
Has anyone avoided a situation for a long time because of anxiety that the situation will cause depression? I had severe depression for a time last year and I'm terrified/convinced that jobs will trigger off another episode of severe depression, so I've avoided it for over a year now. I know I can't hide forever, but I just can't face it because of the fear of it causing depression. I don't know how to get past this, I feel stuck. What happened last year still makes me feel sick. I've never had a job before either, so I know the longer I leave it the harder it will be....I don't know how I would explain the gap on my cv. I graduated from university last year. I'm at the stage now where I've finally managed to buy a potential outfit for interviews in the future so I'm more prepared, but I still cannot bring myself to apply for anything or barely even research anything. It makes me feel so anxious and I can't imagine jobs without also imagining severe depression.
I considered going to the doctors last year about the anxiety, but I felt silly so I didn't. I thought I would've got better by now but I haven't much overall. I'm scared to go to the doctors and I'm not sure how they could help....I feel a bit silly, I don't even know what I would say. Any suggestions? Do you think this sort of avoidant anxiety in fear of depression is something to speak to a doctor about?
I considered going to the doctors last year about the anxiety, but I felt silly so I didn't. I thought I would've got better by now but I haven't much overall. I'm scared to go to the doctors and I'm not sure how they could help....I feel a bit silly, I don't even know what I would say. Any suggestions? Do you think this sort of avoidant anxiety in fear of depression is something to speak to a doctor about?