Silmarwen18
09-04-2014, 08:22 PM
Someone please help me..
Im getting married next Saturday.
A few weeks ago we found out my groom-to-be has Chronic Myeloid Leukaemia. He's on tablets to treat it for the rest of his life. They are designed not to have an effect on his overall health however there are a few known side affects. So far he's been alright. He's had a really severe chest infection (which is hw they found his cancer) which he's just starting to clear off now. One of the side affects is fluid on the lungs. He's been coughing like hes sick again since yesterday afternoon. He's a stubbon person I told him to go to the doctor or the hospital in case he does have the fluid but he wont... hes insisting on waiting for his hospital appointment next week.
He doesn't understand what kind of stress HELL im going through right now as a result of this. As a result of just sitting around watching him suffer. How much I worry hes going to die. I am up and down like a yo-yo. One day im happy the next im depressed and just not coping. I don't want to tell him what Im going through because I don't want him to worry hes got enough shit to deal with.
One minute im fine, the next im so overwhelmed, upset and depressed I want to die....
This is murder and Im sick of living like it... im sick of fear, sick of worry, sick of threats, sick of stress.... sick of sickness!!!!!!
HHHHHHEEEEEEELLLLLLLPPPPPP MMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !
Im getting married next Saturday.
A few weeks ago we found out my groom-to-be has Chronic Myeloid Leukaemia. He's on tablets to treat it for the rest of his life. They are designed not to have an effect on his overall health however there are a few known side affects. So far he's been alright. He's had a really severe chest infection (which is hw they found his cancer) which he's just starting to clear off now. One of the side affects is fluid on the lungs. He's been coughing like hes sick again since yesterday afternoon. He's a stubbon person I told him to go to the doctor or the hospital in case he does have the fluid but he wont... hes insisting on waiting for his hospital appointment next week.
He doesn't understand what kind of stress HELL im going through right now as a result of this. As a result of just sitting around watching him suffer. How much I worry hes going to die. I am up and down like a yo-yo. One day im happy the next im depressed and just not coping. I don't want to tell him what Im going through because I don't want him to worry hes got enough shit to deal with.
One minute im fine, the next im so overwhelmed, upset and depressed I want to die....
This is murder and Im sick of living like it... im sick of fear, sick of worry, sick of threats, sick of stress.... sick of sickness!!!!!!
HHHHHHEEEEEEELLLLLLLPPPPPP MMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !