Joe Vinson
08-31-2014, 09:56 PM
My name is Joseph and I am a 23 year old guy from Picayune, Mississippi. I have been struggling with panic attacks for about 3 years off and on and recently social anxiety. When it comes to being around a new person I am ok. When it comes to being around multiple people I am to myself the first few times. When I don't feel I have a relationship with or I feel have ill feelings about me no matter how many times we meet I stay to myself unless talked to. I can make it seem like anyone has a problem with me, and don't speak my feelings unless to one person. I have been seeing a therapist for about a month and felt it helped until the first week I rescheduled.
What it feels like to me...
I can't speak and I can't look people in the eyes when I am talking
As I talk I think to myself or after what I am saying isn't interesting
If people do or say things I think for them and what I think impacts me
I feel bad about being like this and not being able to control it anymore
It feels like everyone conspires against me
I would rather talk a little than to not talk
I am really easy to read
I feel unmotivated
Sometimes really high or really low
I see it impact everyone else and it sucks
I care to much what other people think
I feel like people in California are different than back home, more understanding
I always have something goin on in my mind and I just want it to slow down or stop
What it feels like to me...
I can't speak and I can't look people in the eyes when I am talking
As I talk I think to myself or after what I am saying isn't interesting
If people do or say things I think for them and what I think impacts me
I feel bad about being like this and not being able to control it anymore
It feels like everyone conspires against me
I would rather talk a little than to not talk
I am really easy to read
I feel unmotivated
Sometimes really high or really low
I see it impact everyone else and it sucks
I care to much what other people think
I feel like people in California are different than back home, more understanding
I always have something goin on in my mind and I just want it to slow down or stop