kaybeee
08-29-2014, 04:46 PM
I realized my anxiety started at work over the summer whenever I had a shift where I had to work by myself. I was afraid of being alone for some reason...maybe in case something happened to me? In the middle of August I moved to a completely new city, a few hours away from my parents. I am a transfer student and my new college is hugeeee. I barely know anybody except for church friends, but I barely see them on campus because there are so many people. I have one roommate who is my best friend basically. She knows what I'm going through, but she has already graduated college so she is just working right now. When I come home from school and she's not there, I feel so alone. Even if I stay on campus at least I'm around people, but I'm around strangers.
Right now, I'm a bit sick. I have a small cold and a headache, but my roommate's boyfriend is over and he is going to a free concert tonight. I have a headache so naturally I shouldn't go, but I just don't want to be alone here. Is this normal? I just haven't really adjusted to living here yet. It doesn't feel like this is my apartment and my school and my city. I'm not used to it, but will I ever be? I wake up anxious all the time. I have a fast heart beat and can't stop thinking about all the things I need to do (even when I don't have much to do). I took a nap an hour ago and I woke up nervous because I couldn't decide whether or not I wanted to go to the concert despite my headache. I wouldn't even go to the concert for the music, I'd go just so I won't be alone. I'm not sure if my anxiety is getting better or worse, but sometimes it feels like it's never going to go away.
I've called the counseling center at my school and their offices were closed for the day, but they open again on Monday. I'm going to see a counselor and see what they say. Has anybody ever felt like this? I'd do anything to not feel lonely even if it meant making my headache worse by going to a concert.
Right now, I'm a bit sick. I have a small cold and a headache, but my roommate's boyfriend is over and he is going to a free concert tonight. I have a headache so naturally I shouldn't go, but I just don't want to be alone here. Is this normal? I just haven't really adjusted to living here yet. It doesn't feel like this is my apartment and my school and my city. I'm not used to it, but will I ever be? I wake up anxious all the time. I have a fast heart beat and can't stop thinking about all the things I need to do (even when I don't have much to do). I took a nap an hour ago and I woke up nervous because I couldn't decide whether or not I wanted to go to the concert despite my headache. I wouldn't even go to the concert for the music, I'd go just so I won't be alone. I'm not sure if my anxiety is getting better or worse, but sometimes it feels like it's never going to go away.
I've called the counseling center at my school and their offices were closed for the day, but they open again on Monday. I'm going to see a counselor and see what they say. Has anybody ever felt like this? I'd do anything to not feel lonely even if it meant making my headache worse by going to a concert.