mattg
08-27-2014, 07:55 PM
How do you deal with anxiety/bad days? It seems like everything's going downhill. I have been trying to deal with it myself but it hasn't helped any. I have different medical problems that have been bothering me for awhile and still trying to figure out what to do. I don't even want to get out of bed most days. I don't have anything to look forward to the next day. Most friends i have either have there own family now or they aren't close anymore. I don't have anyone that I can talk too if I need to talk. Family isn't really helpful. Most of them just look at me like i have something wrong with me and they don't really want to be around me or talk to me much. They know nothing about how i feel and they never will. I'm almost 24 and don't have a regular job. it's hard for me to find anything that I can actually do because of my back and everything else and the doctors are still trying to figure out what to do with me. It just feels like i don't have anyone. I try not to get close to anyone anymore. I was really close to someone and we grew up together, he was like a brother to me. Then when we hit high school we drifted apart. then 3 years ago he passed away and i'm still not the same anymore. We use to do everything together. His birthday is coming up and it's hard. We use to go and do things for our birthdays since we were only 2 weeks apart. It's always hard this time of year. I can't stop thinking about him. I'm not that good with people/confrontation. I've never been that good with people, seems like everyone's looking at me weird, people are always judging. At night i can't sleep well because im always thinking of things, things that I can't control. I've never really been in a relationship with anyone. I've wanted to but they didn't feel the same way I guess, found out that they were talking to other guys. I'm just not sure what to do anymore. I have more bad days than I do good. I just want to feel better. Feel like I belong somewhere.