geekelly000
08-27-2014, 05:06 AM
Hello,
I am new and I have been suffering with anxiety for a very long time. I am hoping this will be a much needed tool for recovery. It is easier for me to express myself here than to open up to anyone face to face. Seems like anyone I try to talk to seems to dissmiss my problem and they keep telling me it's normal. I have been through an extremely stressful 10 years or so. I have been betrayed by so many of the closest people to me that I am not capable of letting anyone get close to me anymore, I keep everyone at arms length and even so I am still afraid that they may hurt me. I suffer with depression, my mind races and there's a tornado of thouhts in my head I just cannot seem to calm it down. I cannot sleep 'til the early hours of the morning and then I find it very difficult to get up in the morning. I am very anxious to get better as I have a daughter and I don't want her to be affected by all this.
I feel that I am a nobody to everyone in this world (apart from my daughter). I feel like I'm just a name on paper at my work, like everyone is ignoring my difficult situation as if I was disposable, as if I wasn't worth the time.I need to tell my very long story to someone who will listen with interest and understand me. I feel that if I open up to someone I just bring them down with my problems.
I'm scared of seeking proffesional help, I couldn't even afford it. My biggest fear is that I lose my daughter.
I'm loosing my hair, I have gained so much weight. I have so much to do that I end up doing nothing. I procrastinate all the time and beat myself up about it. I could go on forever and ever so I'm just gonna stop now. I just wish I could find someone who understands and knows what I'm going through instead of dismissing me.
I am new and I have been suffering with anxiety for a very long time. I am hoping this will be a much needed tool for recovery. It is easier for me to express myself here than to open up to anyone face to face. Seems like anyone I try to talk to seems to dissmiss my problem and they keep telling me it's normal. I have been through an extremely stressful 10 years or so. I have been betrayed by so many of the closest people to me that I am not capable of letting anyone get close to me anymore, I keep everyone at arms length and even so I am still afraid that they may hurt me. I suffer with depression, my mind races and there's a tornado of thouhts in my head I just cannot seem to calm it down. I cannot sleep 'til the early hours of the morning and then I find it very difficult to get up in the morning. I am very anxious to get better as I have a daughter and I don't want her to be affected by all this.
I feel that I am a nobody to everyone in this world (apart from my daughter). I feel like I'm just a name on paper at my work, like everyone is ignoring my difficult situation as if I was disposable, as if I wasn't worth the time.I need to tell my very long story to someone who will listen with interest and understand me. I feel that if I open up to someone I just bring them down with my problems.
I'm scared of seeking proffesional help, I couldn't even afford it. My biggest fear is that I lose my daughter.
I'm loosing my hair, I have gained so much weight. I have so much to do that I end up doing nothing. I procrastinate all the time and beat myself up about it. I could go on forever and ever so I'm just gonna stop now. I just wish I could find someone who understands and knows what I'm going through instead of dismissing me.