supersonic1
08-23-2014, 08:57 PM
After doing multiple questionnaires, speaking to counselors, seeing my physician, I'm finally diagnosed with general anxiety disorder and social anxiety. I don't really think my social anxiety is that severe, but I was told as long as you exhibit anxiety that is debilitating in one public setting that makes it hard for you to function it is classified as having social anxiety. I would say that setting for me is school, classrooms and meeting new people because I feel inferior a lot of times.
A little background information about me, I am 27, I have always been a nervous serious introverted person. I was not a happy kid and cried a lot. The first few years of my life were tense and my mom was quite ill and I did not see her much. I spent those years being raised by various family members while my parents were away so my mom could get better. I remember my aunt used to yell at me and just feeling tense. I moved to North America when I was 10 but I remember I was always afraid I would be alone because I had no siblings and we had no one else in this new land. I'd cry everyday for several months after school when waiting for my parents to come home. I always did well in school and was an Honor Roll student and got As. However, by the time I got to university all of that changed. I moved away from my parents, felt isolated and alone, became quite anti-social for a period and lost weight, & didn't eat much. I'm fine now, but it's been 10 years and I still have not been able to finish my degree. I can't focus in class, or when studying, I'm always worried tense and even have trouble sleeping. I have also had panic attacks. This has affected my self-esteem quite a bit. I consider myself smart, I follow news, politics, etc, and I would say I'm attractive, but seeing everyone move on with their lives, while I'm still suck makes me feel very dumb. I don't even know how to explain it to people. I avoid meeting new people or dating now because I'm so afraid of being judged. I turn down guys a lot because the idea of dating and relationships make me anxious. I've had two relationships, my longest being almost a year, but I have never been in love. The idea of change and not knowing terrifies me. My biggest fear is being stuck and not finishing school, or finding a career. I feel like I am capable of so much more but my problems really affect my focus, and every aspect of my life.
I have no idea why I just shared all of this. Maybe because when I told my friends I have these two disorders now, a lot of them just said ''well everyone has anxiety, I have it too'. It makes me so angry when people say this. No one takes these problems seriously and just think we are making excuses or that everyone has them. I feel like they don't understand me or get it and think I'm just trying to find a way to justify my shortcomings.
Anyone has had similar experience? Advice? I'm going to start seeing a therapist and doing cognitive behavioral therapy. I don't know if I should take medication, but interested to hear other people's experiences.
A little background information about me, I am 27, I have always been a nervous serious introverted person. I was not a happy kid and cried a lot. The first few years of my life were tense and my mom was quite ill and I did not see her much. I spent those years being raised by various family members while my parents were away so my mom could get better. I remember my aunt used to yell at me and just feeling tense. I moved to North America when I was 10 but I remember I was always afraid I would be alone because I had no siblings and we had no one else in this new land. I'd cry everyday for several months after school when waiting for my parents to come home. I always did well in school and was an Honor Roll student and got As. However, by the time I got to university all of that changed. I moved away from my parents, felt isolated and alone, became quite anti-social for a period and lost weight, & didn't eat much. I'm fine now, but it's been 10 years and I still have not been able to finish my degree. I can't focus in class, or when studying, I'm always worried tense and even have trouble sleeping. I have also had panic attacks. This has affected my self-esteem quite a bit. I consider myself smart, I follow news, politics, etc, and I would say I'm attractive, but seeing everyone move on with their lives, while I'm still suck makes me feel very dumb. I don't even know how to explain it to people. I avoid meeting new people or dating now because I'm so afraid of being judged. I turn down guys a lot because the idea of dating and relationships make me anxious. I've had two relationships, my longest being almost a year, but I have never been in love. The idea of change and not knowing terrifies me. My biggest fear is being stuck and not finishing school, or finding a career. I feel like I am capable of so much more but my problems really affect my focus, and every aspect of my life.
I have no idea why I just shared all of this. Maybe because when I told my friends I have these two disorders now, a lot of them just said ''well everyone has anxiety, I have it too'. It makes me so angry when people say this. No one takes these problems seriously and just think we are making excuses or that everyone has them. I feel like they don't understand me or get it and think I'm just trying to find a way to justify my shortcomings.
Anyone has had similar experience? Advice? I'm going to start seeing a therapist and doing cognitive behavioral therapy. I don't know if I should take medication, but interested to hear other people's experiences.