I just want to be heard, not fucking told!

[Ponder]

Seems everyone has answers for others - if your sick of being told what to do in order to "better yourself" then you and I see eye to eye. Aren't you sick of how others talk down to you - ("oh ... they probably don't know they are doing it" - lol - I think many of these individuals suffer are overwhelmed with do-gooder syndrome to see ... and then you have others who are "just on auto pilot doing their job" - The latter I clearly came across yesterday when I arrived for the first appointment with my new psychologist/counselor".

The dreaded waiting room saga jumped out and hit me like a brick regardless of my attempts to be on my best behavior. The waiting room would barley of been more than 3 meters/9.8ft Square AND with a speaker in each corner with the fucking radio selling it's usual BS. I did not even sit down - I just paced in it like a prison cell ... Seriously - the little tiny room with commercial radio pumping away? Clearly shows to me just how out of sync these professionals and just how much on auto pilot they really be. If they were truly concerned about the mental stability of their clients, surely they would pause to think about the environment in which they subject their clients too. Noise Noise and more Noise filling our heads with BS -

ANYWAYS - This women clearly not prepared for my issues ... "So why are you here if everything is alright in your own world" - add to that - "I will let you know what tact I choose and or when I decide to change my approach"

In my own World - In my Own world - In my own World - Get the fuck out of hear, clearly this one does not want to listen! Then the BS about Tact - What am I ... a fucking Guinea pig?
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Hopefully my son will be picking up the paper work I need to go to the next "Coun"seller" - and hopefully they wont be selling my BS either.

These would be professionals just don't get it - and again with the tiny waiting room and radio blaring away --- there just full of shit and as for caring = $$$$$$$$$$ -

Whilst ones outlook surely plays into it - Never be afraid to doctor shop a counselor - even if your just on welfare ... does not mean you have to cop their shit!
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The days of quiet waiting rooms may be over - but it's a fact that plays heavily into my own instability of not wanting to live - because I don't want to be subject to this world any longer at all. LOL at their attempts to bring it back on us and deal out the paranoia chips when they find themselves unable to turn from their own dogma ... the same dogma that dribbled on that radio in their waitings rooms.

There not all the same - so I'll recheck my outlook - and with a bit of luck I will strike a professional who knows how to talk on the same level.

Sure many of us are ass holes - DEAL WITH IT - Just because it's your job does not mean you have to be an asshole - You can be sure these councilors are often talked about at the local retard centers and how it is that they make us worse.

SIGH - Now on with me day. ;)

[Dahila]

ok I suffer a lot in my gp waiting room, so I avoid her like a black disease. The waiting room is size of wash-room and packed with chairs. No windows and the f*I**** radio of course

[Ponder]

Nice to see you again Dahila. Arrrr it's good to be back speaking the truth. The waiting room seems hugely overlooked when it comes to any of the health depts. I think they need lessons from Chinese restaurants or even an elevator supplier. They pack you in tight and then make the room so busy with commercialized imprinting. People are already suicidal enough.

Instead of showing the local brainwashing news, adds and emotional porn everyone is addicted too on those huge displays - why not have the holistic healing power of Nature emanating with relation music mix in with mild stimulations - BUT NO - we live in a world where its BLA BLA BLA - some person with a baton shoved up their ass telling us how we should all live, where to eat, how to dress and who the fuck to love and who to hate!!!!!!!!! ------------------------------------

I saw an anti dope campaign in Canada and it reminded me of the German Nazi regime and the Jews - It's how our local News Media, governments and their depts now treat everyone ... Know your fucking place and shut the fuck up. Look at what's happening in America now. Bringing in the national guard to educate their citizens - But those with the batons shoved up their asses preach to the patriots who fly fags and hate so well ...

But here's the thing - I bet those righteous sons of bitches also hate being stuck in a tiny rooms with all the BS being pumped into their heads as well. People are just actors - and the only ones of those with sense go and hang themselves. RIP Robbin Williams.

That's the state of civilization that we are dealing with. Oh the accolades - Oh what BS ...

Tis good to be back Dahila.

How are you?

[Dahila]

Yeah you right, now I kind of upset due their f**** reaction to the Robins Funeral. The assholes from Westerboo church want to protest and ruin his funeral.
I loved the man and it is unheard of what is going on. The righteous Christians are not different that Islamic brothers. Hell waits for you all ....... it is good to have you back. Unfortunately is you and John only. People pop in see the bull shit here and go away.
I am very claustrophobic, and waiting rooms are killing me also.

[Ponder]

I'm used to that mentality Dahila - I mentioned to someone about Micheal Jacksons death in a kind of nostalgic way to which there immediate response was "who cares; he wasn't a Christian!" Same shit different channel. It must be good to upset others - You get those idiotic phycologist that do it to their clients on purpose - ASS SOON AS THEY PLAY THAT CARD I'M LIKE "BYE BYE!!!" ...

Cully said something back at the Blog which made me think, that perhpas she did it to get rid of me - and perhaps she did ... as I said, those kind of professionals only like the easy Possy Wossys ... not the hard core cases that reflect truth wherever they go. Whatever Dave.

Back to Robin Williams and the farce that he had a blissful existance. PFFFFT ... that what I mean about accolades ... nothing but BS for the pleasantry of other peoples thinking. My wife told me about the Dogmatic Hater that you mention - she too, like you, was very upset to hear about those haters as well.
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On that note Dahila - I got good news ... I made a new appointment with my GP to get a new referral. I won't live like I am chained to only one option ... the option of Know Thy Place ... hehe. No amount of "Show of force and or Brutality so passionately sort by authorities and those high on flag bearing and all that BS ... no amount of badgering can peg me any lower than I'm already seen. Alas it is imposed on us that it is WE that make ourselves like so ... then begins "their" psychology and or analytic justifications for living like so. For them being them and Us being Us ... as will always be ... to them it's all black and white in some overrated sales pitch inscribed in stone so many thousands of years ago. Wow - all bow down to the stone!
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BE WELL - let me try some POSSY WOSSY vibrations to make you smile - lather up that soap and get lost in those bubbles. hehehe - Going out later with my wife to practice more drone footage in the little township just around the next bend of the beach. I like getting lost with the drone, although sometimes I freak out wondering if the drone has enough battery power to make it back. I like those high altitude shots and will try another today. Wish I could stay up in the clouds. People just don't get what its really like, to not want to be a part of this world at all! Instead of expecting others to get their heads out of the clouds, I would suggest that they do a bit of cloud surfing themselves. Man I wish I could go that high - but alas, a couple hundred of meters up in the air with that little camera is good enough for now.

ABOUT HAVING A BREAK FROM THE FORUM - It does not surprise me that they are not here as you say ... perhaps they will come back, however my experience and I know you have a lot of forum experience as well ... is that a lot do move on and don't come back due to the trivial BS posts so many of US make. LOL ME too then ... not you Dahila ...

I burned out, but am now back again ... "Oh Christ, you mean to say he is back eeeee gad" hehe .................................. I've missed you and the others in a positive way. The commiserations that would suck the life out of any well meaning and professional motivator ... OH how I have missed our steam releasing conversations. To others they may be a little too much to handle, but for me - Dahila ... you've always been everything that listeners should be and I will never forget that.
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So tell me --------------------- anything ............ even possy wossy stuff. :) How's your daughter and granddaughter going? I hope all is as well as can be there? I really like the shape of your soaps. Hmmm I thought they look yummy when I saw them. I shall try to get off my lazy but and check your flikr more often ... Man oh man ....... Cully has simply turned into a magician what I can only describe as an extremely high skill level of mastery when it comes to his run of the mill photos now. Defiantly impressed. Hi Cully if your out there. Simply stunning - I know people want to make money from such things, however I really do feel that when you do things on such a passionate levle ... without the thought of money ... that's when I excel ... I hope that is the same for Cully. That's what my last physiologist that I got along with helped to get out of me. She was good at that - and it's also why I will not settle for being toyed with because I know how they are suppose to do their job. It's not a case of telling them how to do it, but more a case of respect - something most people use as toilet paper these days unless it has bling bling and comes wrapped in rose petals.

hehe - sorry I rant too much today ........... Have just missed you all is all .......

Can't remember if you said John is still here ........ He is a good bloke John. I am thankful to of met him. HI JOHN ... PAM as well. Miss you too Pam ... You guys are very patient and I'm thankful for that. Even just opening up a little more in this whatever thread I have made is worth it just to hear from one of you :)
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Don't worry about Robin - Just like my Bro - They are better off than us now. :) Not meaning to continue on such a life draining mode there - just saying it as I think it be. If only to fly into the clouds whereupon my battery would discharge completely. To have no care for that shell that plummets to the ground, but instead become part of that expanse which knows no pain. I keep you all in mind as I send the drone up this day.

Your all still my best online friends :)

Peace as best each of us sees it.
Dave.

[Autumn Hazel Rain]

I can relate, guys. Family, friends, all want to tell you how you should get better, but none want to listen and then understand. The best thing in suffering from depression and anxiety is to know thyself, and have a special release for thyself. Like writing, hiking, or what have you. As of late, after loosing my job, and being stuck in my head with thoughts of life, death, meaning, and daily bouts with anxiety, I have come to conclude that life, at this very moment, is spectacular, no matter all the bullcrap that weighs you down.
peace
autumn

[Dahila]

Autum welcome to the forum:))

Dave I think they are better now too, your little bro and Robin. No pain for them anymore.

Good to hear about app with GP, I will keep my fingers crossed that you get something,,,, Today on the other forum, not the one hehe I showed you, not the red and black one, people were trying to tell me that i am stupid due not believing in Organic labels. Fortunately they were of course the Americanos..... Some of them gave me a lot of links to government rules and regulation. They saying that organic farmers do not spray their crops at all. Tell me Dave why people are so idiotic? are they from a different planet. They really believe that Organic produces are not sprayed:(((
Giving me the links to government rules about it is so funny. Does government ever keep their promises? Our fantastic premier ruined the health care here in Canada!!! So many cuts , they started to cut the programs for autistic children. They let out 80% of psychiatric patients, who do not know how to take care of themselves...so cruel. I can even think about it, I get so upset.
I do not believe in any regulation for aSSHOLES, the rules are for average Joe, not for them. Then my americanos still believe what they say. FDA is still the one who does not make money over the regulation :))) eh life

I want to fly like them every day, every day

[Autumn Hazel Rain]

thanks Dahlia :)

[Dahila]

Autumn I see that you were moved by Robins passing too........ very sad indeed

[Ponder]

Thanks Autumn - beautifully said. - Big Welcome from me too :)

[Autumn Hazel Rain]

yes i was very sad to hear about Robin Williams death. He was spectacular :)

[Autumn Hazel Rain]

thank you Ponder :) I wish you all the best!

[Cullingford]

Good evening all, it's good to see you back here Dave and thank you for your kind comments on my photos, as for making for making money out of it that never crossed my mind I just enjoy getting out with my camera and exploring. My latest toy is a ND fader I love what it can do to the water and clouds! this weekend is a three day weekend so touch wood I will be able get out with my tripod and see what I can pull out of the bag I loved your video on the other thread really enjoyable, it's such a beautiful spot where you live and that long sandy beach is just begging to be explored.

Hi Dahila sad to hear that you are also suffering from government spending cuts! it's always the vulnerable that suffer. I think a lot of is to keep their well off supporters happy the last thing they want to see is the poor and vulnerable having an easy time of it.

Good to meet you Autumn and I hope you manage to get some good footage of that township Dave! take care all
Cully

[JohnC]

Howdy do all, Yes i am still taking nourishment. I was very sad about Robin myself which brings me to something that happened at work the other day. As some of you know i have been struggling with depression and anxiety ( more than usual ) these last few weeks. Well it must have really showed at work because my boss ask me what was up and i told him i was going through a rough spot in life etc. He said well you're not your usual happy self so could YOU PLEASE LEAVE IT AT HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Really? sure i can turn it the fuck off like a light switch. Hell give me some face paint and i will paint a permanent smile on my face. Is that not what Robin Williams did? Judas priest some people just have their head up there asses! ( normally not too bad of a guy but WTF )

[Dahila]

The bosses are absolutely crazy, they want us to leave problems at home, but they do not. I was working in Dental lab well over 6 years. The boss major abuser, was taking off the workers every time he did not get laid. I am sorry but that the frigging reality.
Turn the switch John :)) on and off on and off. That world is more crazy that we are

[needtogetwell]

Hey guys!
I'm back!

Hi Autumn, nice to meet you, and welcome!

Hey Dave, nice to see you're back in form, it's good to see!

Cully, can't wait to see whatever shots you take! They are always so amazing, I still have one of your shots on my laptop as the desktop!

John, I'm so sorry about that Jack ass you work for. Maybe he is a good guy most of the time but really, does he think we are powered with an off switch? I so hope you find your way out of the hole you are in at the moment. Sometimes it just happens and things just change in our brains. I'm hoping for you that that change comes soon! I'm thinking of you.

Dahila, what can I say. Loving and spunky as always.

You all have been talking about the passing of Robin Williams. I have to admit I haven't been able to bring myself to reading anything about it. Maybe I just need to live in my Star Trek bubble a little longer, I'm just not ready to read about it.

Anyway, good to see everyone!
Cheers!