bluefrog
08-14-2014, 10:00 AM
Hey everyone. I decided since I do not feel comfortable seeking out or searching (at this time,) for group therapy (in partial I found it helpful, but not so much otherwise). So, being that, the second best option would be to join a message board. I found this site on my own by going on good old Google!
To keep this brief, without overbearing anyone, I am a 27 year old female, on disability since I was 25, due to at the time - bipolarII and ADD. It was pretty traumatic being "let go" of a job I loved and having to move back home. My biggest accomplishment in my life was going back to college and finishing with honors. Although, as I usually do, I feel like a ghost and nobody seemed to care in my life. Anyone else ever feel this way?
I think it isn't until recently through the help of my psychiatrist (whom I've been seeing since I was 15, I am fortunate to have found someone that I trust and understands me so well), that a lot of my depression really translates to anxiety. I haven't really explored that. I am REALLY not one to be into the labels, but I think a lot of what hinders my progress in life right now and what is sinking me into this horrific deep hole of despair the past two months, especially (having an emergency abdominal surgery) is rooted a lot in anxiety and just giving up? I've always had these "problems," but it's been dark and ugly this past year. I wish I could enjoy life. It's even taking a lot to write this right now, but I recently up'd my medication and it gave me enough "calmness" effect to want to lurk onto my computer.
Ah...that wasn't brief...I do seem to rant when I have a virtual soap box since I do not tend to talk that much.
So, for a "tl;dr" version- discovering new aspects of myself truly there are underlying anxiety and anxious tendencies that don't necessarily manifests itself in the classic physical symptoms that I once commonly thought was the only way to tell if you had anxiety. I started a new medication (added to the lovely cocktail I take already.)
I hopefully think a new turning point, it's the only way I can think positively. I want to share more, but I hope that I will post more later in a different post and learn from others.
My accomplishment for today was waking up, going on my computer and doing this. I'm proud of that. I couldn't do that the last two months.
I hope that everyone is enjoying their day! I hope I could do more, but I have to think one step at a time. Thanks for reading everyone.
To keep this brief, without overbearing anyone, I am a 27 year old female, on disability since I was 25, due to at the time - bipolarII and ADD. It was pretty traumatic being "let go" of a job I loved and having to move back home. My biggest accomplishment in my life was going back to college and finishing with honors. Although, as I usually do, I feel like a ghost and nobody seemed to care in my life. Anyone else ever feel this way?
I think it isn't until recently through the help of my psychiatrist (whom I've been seeing since I was 15, I am fortunate to have found someone that I trust and understands me so well), that a lot of my depression really translates to anxiety. I haven't really explored that. I am REALLY not one to be into the labels, but I think a lot of what hinders my progress in life right now and what is sinking me into this horrific deep hole of despair the past two months, especially (having an emergency abdominal surgery) is rooted a lot in anxiety and just giving up? I've always had these "problems," but it's been dark and ugly this past year. I wish I could enjoy life. It's even taking a lot to write this right now, but I recently up'd my medication and it gave me enough "calmness" effect to want to lurk onto my computer.
Ah...that wasn't brief...I do seem to rant when I have a virtual soap box since I do not tend to talk that much.
So, for a "tl;dr" version- discovering new aspects of myself truly there are underlying anxiety and anxious tendencies that don't necessarily manifests itself in the classic physical symptoms that I once commonly thought was the only way to tell if you had anxiety. I started a new medication (added to the lovely cocktail I take already.)
I hopefully think a new turning point, it's the only way I can think positively. I want to share more, but I hope that I will post more later in a different post and learn from others.
My accomplishment for today was waking up, going on my computer and doing this. I'm proud of that. I couldn't do that the last two months.
I hope that everyone is enjoying their day! I hope I could do more, but I have to think one step at a time. Thanks for reading everyone.