stephanie21
08-12-2014, 12:30 AM
So I finally opened up with a friend on how I've been struggling to leave my home due to anxiety... I told her I can't drive anymore. I have constant dizziness an shortness of breath an how I feel like I'm going to lose my mind sometimes like a crazy person screaming yelling kicking jumping out of a moving carbis what's constantly on my mind.
She got weirded out an asked what happened to me?
How does a normal person who drove for hours happy an was always on the go always has to be doing something just stop an stay home because of dumb reasons....
I said they aren't dumb reasons it's serious to me!
She also asked how is that even possible to think like this an believe the thoughts...
She's obviously normal living a normal peaceful life with no worries so it's easy for her to say that.
But I now regret opening up
An now I feel like shit! Horrible sick dizzy can't breathe want to just scream an cry
Why is this happening to me!?!?
I'm so embarrassed I feel so lost I feel mentally disabled.... Mentally ill I'm just sad now.
In a weird way I feel like she liked hearing that I go through this but hey that might be my anxiety making me paranoid..... An then she also said OMG BE CAREFUL WHEN YOURE ALONE WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WHEN YOU PASS OUT ALONE OR IN FRONT OF YOUR TODDLER? an I just had to throw a fake smile on an say that won't happen anxiety plays tricks on me... Then she replied wow stay home don't go out you can't faint driving or with your baby you need someone with you at all times dizzy spells are no joke an can hurt you? At that moment I felt like I will never be healed from this an have my normal like back she really put me down an now I'm just really sad. I thought letting my anxiety an mental issues out through venting would help but I feel worse :( just thought I'd share my experience I had with my "friend" I know a lot if you guys know how to make me feel better :)
She got weirded out an asked what happened to me?
How does a normal person who drove for hours happy an was always on the go always has to be doing something just stop an stay home because of dumb reasons....
I said they aren't dumb reasons it's serious to me!
She also asked how is that even possible to think like this an believe the thoughts...
She's obviously normal living a normal peaceful life with no worries so it's easy for her to say that.
But I now regret opening up
An now I feel like shit! Horrible sick dizzy can't breathe want to just scream an cry
Why is this happening to me!?!?
I'm so embarrassed I feel so lost I feel mentally disabled.... Mentally ill I'm just sad now.
In a weird way I feel like she liked hearing that I go through this but hey that might be my anxiety making me paranoid..... An then she also said OMG BE CAREFUL WHEN YOURE ALONE WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WHEN YOU PASS OUT ALONE OR IN FRONT OF YOUR TODDLER? an I just had to throw a fake smile on an say that won't happen anxiety plays tricks on me... Then she replied wow stay home don't go out you can't faint driving or with your baby you need someone with you at all times dizzy spells are no joke an can hurt you? At that moment I felt like I will never be healed from this an have my normal like back she really put me down an now I'm just really sad. I thought letting my anxiety an mental issues out through venting would help but I feel worse :( just thought I'd share my experience I had with my "friend" I know a lot if you guys know how to make me feel better :)