Lilac
08-07-2014, 10:45 AM
I was out taking one of my daily walks this morning. The sun was shining and it was a beautiful morning. I have this health anxiety, and I am scared of motor neuron diseases, hence all the walking and exercising.
I've been struggling with a fear of MND for three months, and I haven't had a single day without it. Not even after I did all the necessary testing, and ruled out the disease.
But today, during my walk, a thought suddenly hit me: "You are fine. You are going to be fine". And I had this little feeling of happiness. My legs weren't as heavy - it was easy to walk. I wasn't tired. For a little moment, I saw my body with different eyes - with a different state of mind. All the atrophy I believed I had, I could no longer see. It was weird, but such a wonderful feeling.
Today was a day of freedom.
I've been struggling with a fear of MND for three months, and I haven't had a single day without it. Not even after I did all the necessary testing, and ruled out the disease.
But today, during my walk, a thought suddenly hit me: "You are fine. You are going to be fine". And I had this little feeling of happiness. My legs weren't as heavy - it was easy to walk. I wasn't tired. For a little moment, I saw my body with different eyes - with a different state of mind. All the atrophy I believed I had, I could no longer see. It was weird, but such a wonderful feeling.
Today was a day of freedom.