Just another anxious person trying to get through it .

[cindy_xox]

Hey ,

My name is Cindy. I'm really happy that I found this forum, it makes me feel less alone in this world full of anxiety.
I started to really have anxiety last year around summer, to the point where I had to leave school and I locked myself in the house. It's been hell for me. I'd wake up in the middle of the night, thought i'd go crazy, thought i'd end up hurting someone near me. Everything around me screamed DANGER. I went back to school a few months ago, and it's great. But I wish I was able to do more. Like driving, working, and just living without worrying over every single thing. I used to be a huge traveler. I went to Paris and London by myself, I always loved traveling around the country. And now, it takes me a lot of courage to be on the bus or metro. I gained lots of pounds, and lots of debts. I am just 21 years old and have lots of dreams. There are so many things waiting for me, and this wall named anxiety is starting to really piss me off. I need to get through it.

I hope i'll have the chance to hear your stories, because it's comforting to know that we are not alone. e

So, thank you for reading me.

[Canna87]

hey Cindy, have you talked to a doctor about this? I am new to this as well, my main problem is panic but I still live with a lot of anxiety. Speaking of school, I am currently appealing a tuition fee which really sucks. I panic every time I think about the money I may loose. Are you in college/university? I know how hard it is dealing with your inner problems when the majority of your peers are so keen on the future.

[cindy_xox]

Well I have medications, which calm things a little bit. I go to the psychiatric hospital every 4 months or so. I don't speak about it daily but I have great people around me, and my family all have anxiety, they all've been through the same as me. And most of them, even doctors told me that the best way is to fight it and not let it get the best of you, even though it's hard. I think it only depends of me now. I'm actually still in high school 'cause i've left high school when I was 14. It's my last year so next year it's college for me . Do I need to tell you that i'm freaking out ? lol
And actually i'd say my fear of the future is kind of related to my past. To what i've been through when I was a kid.

[Canna87]

What meds are you using if you don't mind me asking. Hey I finished high school late too, didn't start university till I was 22 so don't sweat it. I can relate to your anxiety, getting on buses, leaving the house when my anxiety is high. When experiencing this, I can do two things. I could just stay home, which means regretting my decision after panic subsides. Either that or I walk out the door or onto the bus in panic mode and tough it out. Regardless of what I do, my episodes, at least do not last longer than 10 min so it's not feasible to hide at home. When your anxious do you display any physical symptoms that others can see? If not, I would suggest trying to push away your anxious feelings - taking the anxiety head on and experimenting with ways you can relieve what you're feeling in "the moment"