kaybeee
07-27-2014, 06:31 PM
I'm looking for answers as to whether or not I'm depressed. A few weeks ago, I felt anxious about work (I have experienced mild anxiety in high school, but never a full-blown panic attack) and starting feeling physically ill. No appetite, weak, lightheaded, so I told my boss I needed a break. She gave me one and it's been about 2 weeks since then. When I first stopped working I felt much more stress-free. I was constantly worrying about other things and realized I needed some breathing space so I stopped work. I'm moving into my own apartment in the fall, away from home, with a roommate, and starting as a transfer student at another college. I'm constantly thinking about how I'm going to afford rent AND tuition. I have some money saved up, but it's still always a worry in my head. On my last day of work, I felt no motivation, just wanted to sleep. Then, when I called my boss I felt relieved that I could take a break. After that day, I felt happy and in the mood to do things. Then, just recently (yesterday) I woke up feeling anxious again and my heart was pounding hard. I woke up early and couldn't fall back asleep (this would happen when I had work, too). So, I would just get out of bed usually, but I had no motivation to do anything. This all came on suddenly yesterday because I wasn't feeling this in the beginning of the week. I feel like I don't care about doing anything. I still eat dinner with my family and go to church and things like that, but I was so tired and didn't feel like hanging out with anybody. I love my boyfriend, but sometimes I'm not in the mood to text him and sometimes I think if I don't text him it's fine, but I know that would hurt him if I didn't talk to him for a long period of time.
Also, I started taking magnesium and when I stopped is when I felt more symptoms like the heart beating hard, etc.
Anyway, it's only the second day since I've felt this way. Today I woke up with a nervousness and my heart was pounding hard again. I made myself get up and walk the dog. I was okay after I forced myself to do it. I tend to begin enjoying the activity after I've started, but then once it's over I'm lacking motivation to do anything again. I still get excited about doing some things. Tomorrow, I'm going to the zoo with my family and I'm excited for that, but I guess right now I feel like I'm not really doing anything with my life. Sometimes I would rather have the fall semester start already so that I'm busy with something. It's also worse when I'm left alone with my thoughts and I can't stop thinking so I try to surround myself with people who I can talk to or with activities that can take my mind off of my worries.
p.s. I have no reason to be depressed...I have a wonderful boyfriend, my family is awesome, etc..
Also, I started taking magnesium and when I stopped is when I felt more symptoms like the heart beating hard, etc.
Anyway, it's only the second day since I've felt this way. Today I woke up with a nervousness and my heart was pounding hard again. I made myself get up and walk the dog. I was okay after I forced myself to do it. I tend to begin enjoying the activity after I've started, but then once it's over I'm lacking motivation to do anything again. I still get excited about doing some things. Tomorrow, I'm going to the zoo with my family and I'm excited for that, but I guess right now I feel like I'm not really doing anything with my life. Sometimes I would rather have the fall semester start already so that I'm busy with something. It's also worse when I'm left alone with my thoughts and I can't stop thinking so I try to surround myself with people who I can talk to or with activities that can take my mind off of my worries.
p.s. I have no reason to be depressed...I have a wonderful boyfriend, my family is awesome, etc..