creative ineptitude
07-23-2014, 01:43 PM
So here I am the current newest of the new members of this forum. So hello to you all. I have been looking for an online community that works for me. I have been to several forums and none of them seem to work for me. Most just seemed like no one was around or just did not want to respond to my posts. I am not a likable person so that could be the reason. Anyway I found this forum recently doing another search for a forum to hang my hat. Not sure why this one never came up in my other searches especially since it was the first one that came up in the latest search.
Ok I know I am blabbing on. So how about a little about me?.... I don't care, I am going to do it anyway. I am a 40 year old male. In more recent years I was diagnosed with anxiety, depression and low testosterone. There are other health issues but I think those are the more pertinent ones. I have half heartedly sought help. Twice I went to see someone, money and time pretty much kept me from seeing them more than a couple of times. Another problem was one of the counselors I went to see either left or was let go from the group they were part of. I think I have always had anxiety, I remember as a kid, hating to go to new places or to where there was going to be a group of people. Things like meeting new people, going to gatherings always made me a little nervous. Most of the time I either just avoided going or I sat by myself in another room or area. As I got older even doing things I enjoyed became a problem. Having to use the bathroom several times before getting to our destination and while there. Now I have to fight just to go almost anywhere, even places I am more comfortable with. All this is going to make things harder for me as I am looking for work after losing my job a few weeks ago. Although with the economy the way it is, I will have to probably find a shelter or something in the near future.
I am babbling now and to be honest this has taken me nearly an hour to do. Things kinda took my mind from it, that and I needed time to figure out what to say. I guess like in my life I have problems completing things.
Ok I know I am blabbing on. So how about a little about me?.... I don't care, I am going to do it anyway. I am a 40 year old male. In more recent years I was diagnosed with anxiety, depression and low testosterone. There are other health issues but I think those are the more pertinent ones. I have half heartedly sought help. Twice I went to see someone, money and time pretty much kept me from seeing them more than a couple of times. Another problem was one of the counselors I went to see either left or was let go from the group they were part of. I think I have always had anxiety, I remember as a kid, hating to go to new places or to where there was going to be a group of people. Things like meeting new people, going to gatherings always made me a little nervous. Most of the time I either just avoided going or I sat by myself in another room or area. As I got older even doing things I enjoyed became a problem. Having to use the bathroom several times before getting to our destination and while there. Now I have to fight just to go almost anywhere, even places I am more comfortable with. All this is going to make things harder for me as I am looking for work after losing my job a few weeks ago. Although with the economy the way it is, I will have to probably find a shelter or something in the near future.
I am babbling now and to be honest this has taken me nearly an hour to do. Things kinda took my mind from it, that and I needed time to figure out what to say. I guess like in my life I have problems completing things.