Eeeeeek!
07-19-2014, 01:32 PM
Just come across this Forum and thought I would give it a go...thanks for the opportunity to do so.
I live in NZ and am 42 years of age. I have suffered from anxiety, off and on, more or less, since I was a child, but only recognized what the problem was about 10 years ago. To me anxiety is like poison. When I feel it, it feels like acidic poison in my veins. At least now I know what 'it' is that I suffer. Not knowing was the worst. At least now I know that I am not mad, nor going mad nor alone even though it is a very lonely (isolating) experience for me right now.
Some of my closest and dearest friends have commented that I am unstoppable except for my archilles (anxiety). I don't want to be handicapped by anxiety. I feel so strongly towards anxiety, that I hate it. I need to remember when I am suffering from anxiety, that it is anxiety that I hate, not me. Otherwise I run the risk of tipping into depression. And, of course, I love me!
I am not on medication as I don't want to block my senses, but I am actively looking for practical suggestions to prevent or minimise anxiety and to work through acute anxiety when it hits me. The trigger this time for me is the emotions I have associated with a potential new relationship.
I feel like the fact that I suffer from anxiety is a 'secret shame'. The fact I suffer from anxiety means I have missed out on a lot of experiences and it has lead to misunderstandings. Anxiety takes its toll. I want to change this. Out of respect for myself and the life I deserve to lead.
I live in NZ and am 42 years of age. I have suffered from anxiety, off and on, more or less, since I was a child, but only recognized what the problem was about 10 years ago. To me anxiety is like poison. When I feel it, it feels like acidic poison in my veins. At least now I know what 'it' is that I suffer. Not knowing was the worst. At least now I know that I am not mad, nor going mad nor alone even though it is a very lonely (isolating) experience for me right now.
Some of my closest and dearest friends have commented that I am unstoppable except for my archilles (anxiety). I don't want to be handicapped by anxiety. I feel so strongly towards anxiety, that I hate it. I need to remember when I am suffering from anxiety, that it is anxiety that I hate, not me. Otherwise I run the risk of tipping into depression. And, of course, I love me!
I am not on medication as I don't want to block my senses, but I am actively looking for practical suggestions to prevent or minimise anxiety and to work through acute anxiety when it hits me. The trigger this time for me is the emotions I have associated with a potential new relationship.
I feel like the fact that I suffer from anxiety is a 'secret shame'. The fact I suffer from anxiety means I have missed out on a lot of experiences and it has lead to misunderstandings. Anxiety takes its toll. I want to change this. Out of respect for myself and the life I deserve to lead.