It's that time again... Holiday

[Kixxi]

As an anxiety patient you'd think that a holiday is just what you need to relax. Well... Wrong. I'm leaving on holiday with the entire family on Sunday, about 8 people, and I can tell you that I'm dreading it. I know I'm not as bad as I use to be, but holidays are usually not my idea of fun. I generally just run behind everyone else and try not to have a panic attack. Although with the new techniques I learned I think I'll be a bit less anxious, but it is still hard for me to have fun outside of the house. Everyone here is so excited and looking for places to see and go, and here I am sitting and thinking: "why go there? It's so busy", "why does everyone always want to do something that makes me feel physically ill cause of anxiety." I am pretty much going in my victim role again and I'm so agitated. I know it's all due to my anxiety, but I'll tell you, I wish I could do something that I find relaxing to...

Any tips?

[Dahila]

Kixxi I never go to family reunions or parties , cause I can not take the movement the people, even the family. The only person I can be with and calms me down is my granddaughter. Are you on meds dear?
Have you try yoga or guided meditation or meditation? will you have access to music or do you have mp3 player so you could get some peace, being with the group?

[Kixxi]

Kixxi I never go to family reunions or parties , cause I can not take the movement the people, even the family. The only person I can be with and calms me down is my granddaughter. Are you on meds dear?
Have you try yoga or guided meditation or meditation? will you have access to music or do you have mp3 player so you could get some peace, being with the group?

I don't have much problems with the family when it's inside the home, because I can always run to a quiet corner... Of course, as you said a holiday is quite different. I am on meds at the moment, I am on Sertraline 100 mg (or Zoloft I think is the other name for it). I practice yoga nearly daily and it has helped me quite a bit. I'll try meditation before heading out and coming back to the lodge every day. I hope that it will help me a bit during the day.

I tried finding something I can get excited about and there was something called snorkelling with sharks (ironic for someone with anxiety I know lol). Wanted to do it... Then I saw the price lol... Back to looking I suppose.

[Im-Suffering]

I don't have much problems with the family when it's inside the home, because I can always run to a quiet corner... Of course, as you said a holiday is quite different. I am on meds at the moment, I am on Sertraline 100 mg (or Zoloft I think is the other name for it). I practice yoga nearly daily and it has helped me quite a bit. I'll try meditation before heading out and coming back to the lodge every day. I hope that it will help me a bit during the day.

I tried finding something I can get excited about and there was something called snorkelling with sharks (ironic for someone with anxiety I know lol). Wanted to do it... Then I saw the price lol... Back to looking I suppose.

I have a fondness for you Sarah. I did watch your video as well. You are a beautiful soul. I do wish you a wonderful life, and am glad our paths crossed atleast for a moment or 2.

[Dahila]

Oh Sarah what a beautiful old name;))
you have problem to go out of your safe zone, it happens but it can be overcome. Try " Guided Meditation" the thread. Look on youtube (your are quiet familiar with it) at name Jon Kabat- Zinn and click me please (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aS5QpPRFdbg)
This guys is wonderful and very famous, he probably is the most known worth to check it (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o1Kph9R6y1E)
and hundreds of guided meditation easy to learn and practise (http://www.fragrantheart.com/cms/free-audio-meditations)

I hope you will enjoy your vacation and find your spot of happiness:)) it is waiting for you;)

[Kixxi]

Hi Guys,


Well, I had a terrible holiday. I am so down I feel like crying right now. I have to go to work in a minute and I'm not sure I am going to cope. I am so scared, petrified. I had the worst panic attack ever in Blackpool so it is safe to say I had a major relapse. I feel like I'm pushing myself to hard to go out. I wanted to be honest in this thread, I wish I could say I had a pleasant holiday but I did not. Worst thing is, after a few days in the caravan (because I was to scared to go out). My aunt had a real go at me, saying I was a prat and that I was letting down everyone. It caused a huge row and ended up with me in tears confined in the bedroom. Now I am so unsure of myself. I feel like I cannot get a grip at all. I just needed to vent to someone. I feel like I am going to lose the people I love because of this. Also my job. This is my first day! I don't want to be confined to my house for the rest of my life, but even now I'm anxious in the house. I don't want to let anyone down... I want to work and help people. But the fear is so much stronger right now...

P.S. My real name is Sandra :)

[Kixxi]

Well, my family pushed me to do it this morning. I was really anxious and my boss just took me aside and said how she handled it. I went to work for the full induction day.
The positives:

* I done this and nobody can take it away. No matter how uncomfortable I was at times.
* Even though I got a massive headache and have to start on my second job now, I feel like I achieved something.

I learned that the only way to beat this thing is facing it. No matter how scared I am. Only downside for me now is that we are currently having a heatwave and the heat is getting to me a bit.

[superchick22684]

Kixxi,
Sorry to hear that you experienced anxiety on holiday and that it upset your family. I am glad that you were able to go to your first day of work though that is excellent. I've noticed with my anxiety that sometimes things can be great and other times it feels like you have hit the bottom. This probably is going to sound silly but whatever you do make sure to celebrate the small victories that you have by pushing through your anxiety. You can do this :)