Feel so alone

[kippy7]

I joined this forum in November last year and i forgot i did.Forgetting things is one of the problems since it all began. Everyday i want to scream,its like its stuck in my chest and i just want it to just stop.I develped Panic Attacks 2yrs ago,it started when i became the caregiver to my Mother-in-law who died of COPD. I was with her alone while my husband carried on an online relatonship that turned into multiple affairs on his part. I was crushed because days after my Mother-in-law died he started throwing hypotheticals at me,what if he didn't want to be married anymore. It was horrible and i'm still suffering.I have Anxiety and Panic Attacks regular and i try so hard to be strong but i have no support,not from my family,not from anyone.

You must understand in my community this is not something that is talked about,its everything else but not Anxiety which makes it very difficult to open up to anyone when no one wants to talk about it.I'm tired of hearing i'm making myself sick.I don't want this,i would anything to be me again anything in the world to be the person i was.Anything to have my heart stop pounding for no reason,the inside tremours that leave me shaky all the time,the muscle twitches,the almost fainting,short breaths,and pain all over.I'm sorry guys i'm just,i'm just venting :(

[WELnow]

Hi,
Sorry it's been such a rough time for you, Sorry about the loss of your Mother in law , it is really a wonderful thing you did taking care of her :) Talking with people who feel the same symptoms as you can definitely help so venting is good! Being you again starts with one small step , looking for support when you need is a step in the right direction.
Feel Well,
Charlene

[Kixxi]

I joined this forum in November last year and i forgot i did.Forgetting things is one of the problems since it all began. Everyday i want to scream,its like its stuck in my chest and i just want it to just stop.I develped Panic Attacks 2yrs ago,it started when i became the caregiver to my Mother-in-law who died of COPD. I was with her alone while my husband carried on an online relatonship that turned into multiple affairs on his part. I was crushed because days after my Mother-in-law died he started throwing hypotheticals at me,what if he didn't want to be married anymore. It was horrible and i'm still suffering.I have Anxiety and Panic Attacks regular and i try so hard to be strong but i have no support,not from my family,not from anyone.

You must understand in my community this is not something that is talked about,its everything else but not Anxiety which makes it very difficult to open up to anyone when no one wants to talk about it.I'm tired of hearing i'm making myself sick.I don't want this,i would anything to be me again anything in the world to be the person i was.Anything to have my heart stop pounding for no reason,the inside tremours that leave me shaky all the time,the muscle twitches,the almost fainting,short breaths,and pain all over.I'm sorry guys i'm just,i'm just venting :(

I think a lot of us can relate what you are going through and you will find the support you need here. Trust me when I say that this is something you can get control of. It does take a little bit of effort, but once you do you'll get the most powerful and happy feeling you ever felt. I am sure that with our support and the proper treatment you'll pull through this.

I had panic attacks for 6 years, and I'm still recovering. Terrible anxiety symptoms and pretty much the worst time of my life (except for meeting my fiancé of course). I am now getting better :) But there is no shame in admitting you are anxious. It is a condition, and it is about time people realise this :)

[Dahila]

Oh Kippy you are not alone, first of all Welcome to the forum. A lot of people have similar problems like you. I have panic attacks and anxiety for over 40years from very early childhood and still kicking. You will survive the separation of this ass*** of yours. you will get stronger. U deserve someone who will love you the way you are. for now stick with us and loneliness will easy:))

[kippy7]

Thnk you guys so very much for the replies,its good to here i'm not alone. Your supportive words means a lot me and i'm glad i found this forum because it is helpful reading that my symptoms don't mean impending death:D