tallman72
06-25-2014, 04:59 AM
Hi everyone,
im a 42yo male, i have 2 beautiful girls and a wonderful partner , from a young age like 14 i had issues of anxiety only with social situations , and in my late teens and early twentys it was crippling, mainly it was the anticipation of an event, for example if i was invited to a party, i would get anxious everyday until the party constantly thinking about it playing out scenarios and just generally feeling panic until it would build to the point of vomiting, The closer it got the more heightened the feelings, if i somehow made it to the event. generally i was ok. It was a rare event though that i would go to it and not make up excuses why i couldn't go. because this was a daily event as you can imagine my weight was very poor.
As i got older and i guess social life is not as hectic i progressed through jobs that didn't have an emphasis on the social aspect which was good and my anxiety reduced to a point where i am now, and i haven't had an episode , well i cant remember the last one, and i found myself pushing myself into situation which i would normally not be comfortable with , like working as a volunteer at my children's school, even going on stage and playing with a band in front of other people.
but i am changing jobs next and i have already received an email from the boss talking about a team building session at the pub on wednesday , and straight away these feelings have come back.
What is wrong with me? Why does this happen? i don't want to feel like this?
What Can i Do , can anyone relate to this type of anxiety?
im a 42yo male, i have 2 beautiful girls and a wonderful partner , from a young age like 14 i had issues of anxiety only with social situations , and in my late teens and early twentys it was crippling, mainly it was the anticipation of an event, for example if i was invited to a party, i would get anxious everyday until the party constantly thinking about it playing out scenarios and just generally feeling panic until it would build to the point of vomiting, The closer it got the more heightened the feelings, if i somehow made it to the event. generally i was ok. It was a rare event though that i would go to it and not make up excuses why i couldn't go. because this was a daily event as you can imagine my weight was very poor.
As i got older and i guess social life is not as hectic i progressed through jobs that didn't have an emphasis on the social aspect which was good and my anxiety reduced to a point where i am now, and i haven't had an episode , well i cant remember the last one, and i found myself pushing myself into situation which i would normally not be comfortable with , like working as a volunteer at my children's school, even going on stage and playing with a band in front of other people.
but i am changing jobs next and i have already received an email from the boss talking about a team building session at the pub on wednesday , and straight away these feelings have come back.
What is wrong with me? Why does this happen? i don't want to feel like this?
What Can i Do , can anyone relate to this type of anxiety?