Alideebo
06-22-2014, 06:33 AM
Hello everyone. I am brand new to the forum (I would never have considered sharing my problems before) and needing some advice or suggestions from people who have been where I am (my heart is beating so fast right now and I'm getting the knot in my stomach)
I have been suffering from bipolar disorder for 8 years which was quickly diagnosed but my anxiety has hit and all time high. I've always been socially awkward and dreaded meeting anyone and talking on the phone was no go.
However about two months ago I was at work when I was completely overwhelmed by my worrying thoughts and began pullin my hair, screaming at co workers and kicking objects with no purpose.
I got signed off work, was transferred to the crisis team (who were incredible!) and slowly began to feel like myself again.
The problem is I'm due back at work next week. I work with young adults who have challenging behaviour/autism/learning disabilities and a pre medical check was part of the job offer. I was honest but vended the truth saying I am on medication but I am stable (very vague about BD.) One of my sicknotes from the crisis team said I was off due to BD which work was unaware I was suffering from.
I am meant to be mentally fit to carry out my job and I am terrified to the point of needing the lorazepam just to even contemplate returning.
People who have returned to work after periods of severe anxiety; how did you cope? Are there any coping strategies I could use to get me through the next week so I can lay off the lorazepam.
I also want to ask my manager if I could return part time and I'm terrified of the outcome.
I am mood stable and other than work associated anxiety I feel so much better I just can't handle the waiting period.
(Does anyone know the legality? Are they able to fire me because of this?)
Sorry about the long thread but my heart is beating less and the knot has gone :)
Thanks
I have been suffering from bipolar disorder for 8 years which was quickly diagnosed but my anxiety has hit and all time high. I've always been socially awkward and dreaded meeting anyone and talking on the phone was no go.
However about two months ago I was at work when I was completely overwhelmed by my worrying thoughts and began pullin my hair, screaming at co workers and kicking objects with no purpose.
I got signed off work, was transferred to the crisis team (who were incredible!) and slowly began to feel like myself again.
The problem is I'm due back at work next week. I work with young adults who have challenging behaviour/autism/learning disabilities and a pre medical check was part of the job offer. I was honest but vended the truth saying I am on medication but I am stable (very vague about BD.) One of my sicknotes from the crisis team said I was off due to BD which work was unaware I was suffering from.
I am meant to be mentally fit to carry out my job and I am terrified to the point of needing the lorazepam just to even contemplate returning.
People who have returned to work after periods of severe anxiety; how did you cope? Are there any coping strategies I could use to get me through the next week so I can lay off the lorazepam.
I also want to ask my manager if I could return part time and I'm terrified of the outcome.
I am mood stable and other than work associated anxiety I feel so much better I just can't handle the waiting period.
(Does anyone know the legality? Are they able to fire me because of this?)
Sorry about the long thread but my heart is beating less and the knot has gone :)
Thanks