killingmeslowly
12-01-2005, 02:24 AM
i'm burdened with a whole host of problems but this one really bothers me at the moment. a bit of a long story i'm afraid..
i worked for a very small company (there were about eight of us) so, even though i usually worked from home, we were on a loose rota to attend the office and man the phones.
as my disorder grew i wasn't able to make it to the office as much as i should of done and, when i did, i increasingly found myself throwing up in the middle of the street (highly distressing.)
so, at 11:40 on December 18th 1999 i was forced to resign due to my 'zero contribution' to the company.
i didn't have the strength to argue or face them in court but i'm now left with feelings that really burn me.
for instance, i was the top salesman at the time (and continued to be well after i left!) i sorted out a sexual harrassment case because the Directors hadn't a clue what to do. i created the company demonstration disk (which took months of work, including my own holiday.) had to sort out all the problems of my fellow salesman (there were loads..) and, during this so called year of zero contribution, i was also given a 20% pay-rise .. that itself doesn't sound like someone who achieved nothing for the company.
i can't take them to court now, haven't contacted them to describe my anger or even dealt with these feelings.
whilst i took more days off (from the office - i was still working at home) i was still allocated double the amount of 'office days' than everyone else and, even with my days off, i attended more than anyone else anyway. in fact i added extra 'days off stickers' to the bosses wall chart to show how absurd it all was - not that it helped me, he included them in his awful reference about me to my new employer!
anyway, i want to chop the hands off of these people so they know how terrible anxiety disorder can be. they ignored my requests for help and disregarded the years of great service i gave them.
how does one come to terms with such?
i worked for a very small company (there were about eight of us) so, even though i usually worked from home, we were on a loose rota to attend the office and man the phones.
as my disorder grew i wasn't able to make it to the office as much as i should of done and, when i did, i increasingly found myself throwing up in the middle of the street (highly distressing.)
so, at 11:40 on December 18th 1999 i was forced to resign due to my 'zero contribution' to the company.
i didn't have the strength to argue or face them in court but i'm now left with feelings that really burn me.
for instance, i was the top salesman at the time (and continued to be well after i left!) i sorted out a sexual harrassment case because the Directors hadn't a clue what to do. i created the company demonstration disk (which took months of work, including my own holiday.) had to sort out all the problems of my fellow salesman (there were loads..) and, during this so called year of zero contribution, i was also given a 20% pay-rise .. that itself doesn't sound like someone who achieved nothing for the company.
i can't take them to court now, haven't contacted them to describe my anger or even dealt with these feelings.
whilst i took more days off (from the office - i was still working at home) i was still allocated double the amount of 'office days' than everyone else and, even with my days off, i attended more than anyone else anyway. in fact i added extra 'days off stickers' to the bosses wall chart to show how absurd it all was - not that it helped me, he included them in his awful reference about me to my new employer!
anyway, i want to chop the hands off of these people so they know how terrible anxiety disorder can be. they ignored my requests for help and disregarded the years of great service i gave them.
how does one come to terms with such?