Hey Doctor - FUCK YOU AND YOUR PERSCRIPTIONS

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Just throwing the final edit out there. My wife help some with the editing and then I did some more which might of been bad grammar. I will never forget how only after a month or two on antidepressants how my ears started to ring, and have never stopped since!

Grrrrrrr - I am so much into learning about how to balance with healthy food. Or making my food healthy by balancing the bodies imbalance with what I put in.
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Final Edit - appointment with Dermatologist Today. (We are thinking it's more Renal Itch!) - AKA CKD! Kidney Disease RARE SIDE EFFECT LOL @ THAT - it also brings it on like it does with Tinnitus .. They should be more careful prescribing fucking pills to people with my history but they fucking don't care!!!! I am more counting on what the GP has to say more so. These different doctors really do not keep linked as they should. I made two copies. I left out a lot of stuff but this is more relating to NOW as well as my reasons to this fucking doctors attitude (and NILL ENCOURAGEMENT) towards me healing Naturally! Is such a shame they do not and will not listen when people are presenting the Side Effects right before their fucking Noses.

It's also SAD that society also chooses to ignore such side effects and opt for the quick way out, later wondering what and why they are presenting with other complications further down the track. I firmly believe half my anxiety has been both created and heightened through the use of prescriptions sort from Doctors who live of "kick Backs" -> ( Gifts for superscribing certain medications!!!) This is the attitudes we be subjected under our health care today and has been for many many decades:

I left out possibility of histamine intolerance and other things - but I know these too are also one of many on the list of side effects. Shot term fixes can be as detrimental as long term users - who create an imbalance and dependency. The side effects thus far on anything presented to me are not worth it and actually makes things worse. Attitudes of any doctors I have come across, have not worked with me to find better alternatives. Such is the medical state for welfare Dependant types and attitudes towards those who seek more natural alternatives.
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NOTES!


History:


Kidney Failure Age 18/19 - Teenage Alcoholic/drug addict Suffered Alcohol Poisoning multiple times


Rhabdomyolysis 2007 (Exertion Induced) - Renal Failure hospitalized 7 days avoided dialysis


Tinnitus – 2012 (brought on by antidepressants and triggered later by seroquel/quitipine)


Gall Bladder Removed 2010


Itching none stop since Dec 2013 – Almost Immediately after stopping 3 months using Seroquel


Treated for scabies started April 2014 :
4 x Doses of oral ivermectin (1 week apart) each taken in excess to make sure.



5 x Double applications of 5% permethrin cream. Multiple applications taken within the Week.

Coated body in sulfur and petroleum jelly multiple times – Clove Oil, Tea Tree Oil, Eucalyptus Oil, Diatomaceous earth, Olive Oil, Grape Seed Oil, and Coconut Oil.



Antihistamines sometimes up to 4 per day – Gave short term relief, but stopped working now.



Apparently scabies no longer present but itching continues. I question if I actually ever had Scabies?


Do NOT like to take Seroquel & Anti-depresants “long Term” Because:
Patient has a predisposition to Kidney Failure and already has an impaired Kidney.
Patient is sensitivity to Tinnitus and is triggered/heightened with the use of such medications.
Patient has exhibited sever itching and cramps whilst on and off Seroquel – (itching is heightened/extreem when coming off)
Itching started first time immediately after coming off Seroquel in Dec 2013 then flared up going back on Seroquel in Feb 2014 and May 2014


Current Symptoms:


Constant itching, mainly on Legs and Arms.

Sores take a long time to heal, Water Oozing out of open scabs


Upon Waking - legs cramp intensely when stretching in bed

Itching intensifies with exertion (laborious work/exercise)

Cramps in both the arms and legs (thighs and calf’s) becoming more frequent with exertion

Itching intensifies when eating too much of the wrong foods

Itching intensifies when drinking too much fluid

Has sore kidneys – more so on the right side


Increasing Confusion, memory issues & frustration over simple issues. (wife noticed this happening slowly over the last 6-12 months, getting increasingly worse)


Wife has noticed smell on breath and body similar to that when I had Rhabdomyolysis.


Frequent urination, urgency, slow stream. Urine often colourless.


Have tried changing eating habits, went on juicing diet for a week or so, did not ease itching and often made it worse.

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Sigh to the fucking religious quoter's - who feel the need to justify their own thoughts and hand our their own prescriptions - Fuck You Too!!! You take your Pills and shut the fuck up while I fucking have my cry.

Blessings ... LMFOA ... Oh How "I'm Suffering" ... Now work that one out. :P

[Dahila]

Oh shit I thought you get some answers....... it seems like doctors are horses that want to go in differet directions and we do not count. You need to have blood tests as soon as posible. The breath is a good indication that you are getting poisoned. What about seeing GP?
Yeah is difficult to take the "I am suffering" with obstruction or diarrhea or fucken bad tooth. The forum is frequented by teenagers and oldies like us can go and ........you know what they say...
I have a great difficulties with "I am suffering" and I am not blessed .....

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arrrr, how your words warm me Dahila :) ... I really needed such a commiserating response. TY - Keep popping the pills like they go, and eventually they will really know what it is like to suffer with fucked body parts that were stressed like so, for so long.

Anyways Dahila - They say the kidney is fine according to the blood results. I really am stumped and frustrated as to what it could be. The above symptoms are as is and observed by my wife - BUT whilst I can't beleive that the readings are fine on my Kindey - I will certainly not complain. My kidneys have most certainly felt stressed at any rate!!! Cramps and all the above previously mentioned.

The apointment was TRAGIC - I was not warned I was going to be greeted in a small lonesome bare room with a computer screen and the image of a person on the other end. "WHAT CAN I DO FOR YOU?" comes the annoyingly scratching tone from the speakers. That was after I was told to come back an hour later, because they fucked up the times.

'm Like - "Well if you don't know, then I guess I'm ..." and then my wife cuts me off with a warning glare - It was so impersonal and I was so unprepared thinking I was up for a personal visit to which I could hand over my notes. It was totally FUCKED!!! I cold not take in all his words - my wife had to sit next to me and explain my anxiety, social phobia and depression and bla bla ... to which I don't think this image gave one fuck!!! I could not believe my doctor set me up to this in his own clinic without warning me it was going to be like a teleconference thing.

Just got of the phone to get their number and going to email my concerns about the obvious MISS COMMUNICATION that tool place. The web camera was totally inappropriate to view my issues as it gave bad contrast and the lighting was washed. I also had to stand on my chair to show my leg which was a JOKE ... and again given the quality of camera and light totally inappropriate. The system is LAZY for LAZY doctors - we do not live out in the desert - reliance on such technocracy has its moments, but not when used with inferior equipment and then adopted for urban areas - that's just fucking lazy with emphasis on quantity over quality. I'd rather have a fucked kidney and be gone from this world sooner than later, that have to put up with such impersonalized and disrespectful discourse. Pffft ... to all those that bend over and accept such BS as "the way"

Always lovely to chat with you Dahila :)

I go share my concerns via email and prepare properly for this next "screen dressing" I'll take some real photos - especially when flared up!!! He is going to put me on some Chemical creams - I will try, but will also record the results and send those back as well. Fucking useless Video conference - may as well of skyped me at my own fucking home . LOL hahahahaha .... all comes down to money - but fucked if I would pay for such a fucked service!!!!

"Oh why bother then" ... I don't fucking know ... I must have rocks in my fucking head!

One las thing - to which I have been patient with ... BUT I AM FUCKING OVER IT ... why the fuck are they all either Indian or Chinese?????

Don't like the question - then don't fucking answer - know the answer ... then give it your best shot.

Until next time Dahila ... always a pleasure with you. ;)

[Dahila]

Yeah why? My Indian dermatologist told my friend (he is practicing in Canada for over 30 years) that her growth on her skin is ok, she went for vacation to Poland and went to doc, the growth is the most malignant kind of cancer. Just tell me how is it possible situation like that. I had never heard about it. Is Australian Health system screwed up to this extend? You right you should give him your story through skype. What was a point of going to there?
I am not surprised you are upset; I probably would scream and jump around like crazy gorilla;(

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Again, I have up till now, been quite accepting of the "overseas" Doctors being implemented on the Lower Class Health Care System - BUT NOT ANYMORE! - They are quick to dismiss and boarder on being augmentative with a pompous attitude to match. ... and Note the way THEY simply say - (and don't forget the accent) " ... No No No ... I tell you ... it is OK - No Worry!"

I can 100% envisage how it was with your friend. The "lower - class" (just a term yet so many bitterly seek to ascend from those two words - hence the guilt of not being more - SIGH) are completely practiced on and in that process they are repeatedly humiliated and made to feel as if they should bow down further than is already it required. The fucking TV's with all that useless societal brainwashing 24/7 sensationalized news is now played in ALL doctors waiting rooms like some kind of compulsory display of "thou shalt conform!" You don't have to be paranoid to see that shit happening, you just need a little bit of age to know the difference. Once you could break the silence with a little personal chat of meaning, (whilst respecting the peace of others) however people are less likely now to say anything whilst they sit there and bare the compulsory imprinting - when really all any of us want, is to at least sit in as much silence as could otherwise be fucking sort. GGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr rrrrrrr Those able to sit, smile and be fed such crap from such a device are no more than sheep having been played - they are quick to change their smiles in the discomfort of those that really see - how quick those smiles turn when glancing our way. Pfffft! Typcally those that really need not be seen - they only visit to ensure they live to 100 and maintain that fake smile they do so well. Tis how the tune in to such morning shows.

This is the world in which we love now Dahila. Completely impersonal with any dialogue when not bounded by the constant subjection to shame and guilt; that such dialogue is now based on want and gain with very no time for anything else. By the clock! In a quieter world before gender wars, I would think nothing of getting up out of my chair for an older lady/lady or go open a door to assist someone in need. You can bet your bottom dollar -> "that 24/7 imprinted shame and guilt" to which is broadcast and works so effectively, makes such ways questioned in those who once cared for such things as to having those being helped -> reject such gestures, as nothing more than insult to their own fears - in which they have been taught to see.

Remember how I told you my wife is studying an advance diploma in Western Herbal Medicine - We both thought it was such a JOKE with regard to a module on "Communication" - When was the last time someone touched your hand, whilst looking in you in eye to welcome you, to make you feel as though you mattered? When? ... Without an alternative motive, when you did not have to pay? When? ... was it in some church meeting - Pffffft ... I say without an alternative motive did I not. Again - Pffft.
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It is early in the morning here Dahila and I have been up for some time already with the itch and burn - however I do feel much better for such a rant and rave. You know I am not the "sit there and take it type" - the "conform for peace sake deceptive label" - Just as they are quick to medicate with pills - and now it would seem chemicalized creams - I truly am honored to know someone such are yourself Dahila.

You are the true meaning of resilience, strength, courage and hope. I like how you too - whilst no doubt unique to me - that like me, you see many of the same things I see. AND BTW ... that White Tea ... it's fucking AWESOME ... I make it weak and just a touch of honey. I am learning to better balance having met you! OHHHHHH - how I yearn to dig through the pain in all that I do ... especially when I'm preparing my herb garden. I love how you DO NOT simply ask me this of that question (You more listen and ask in a way that does not sound like question) purely to TELL me what I must do - like some kind of charlatan handing out the daily reading in some newspaper or dare I say some forum - like some new age philosophy bent on unbalanced and deceptive affirmations that only go in one direction without gravity to keep them truly grounded as they so claim - YOU MY DEAR are as real to me as the earth beneath my feet with maddock in hand. You can not get any more real than that.
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I go make cuppa while now having opened some door in my head ... like all other parts of me has been itching to be awakened ... but more subtly so ... I know well your gifts as you know them so well yourself ... I need to reconnect with on such a level myself despite having illuminated so much deception - in doing so I have darkened my own corner and prevented my own healing to a large degree. I think on that some now. :)

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The sun is starting to rise - I finish my edits ... and make that damn cuppa ... LIKE I SAID :P

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OK - just had two eggs with only one yoke - ... lightly panned and flipped in coconut oil (Spray - I prefer Jar) "avoiding any more than one yoke for now" - Very small piece of gluten free bread (last one - as gluten free breads are full of more chemicals than it is worth - like the creams they want me to pacify myself with) ... No Butter anymore ... No sugar anymore ... No dairy anymore and has been this way for well other a months now. Perhaps I am just detoxing in a painful way Dahila :) ... and of course I have one more more cup of white tea before hitting the early morning sun in my patch now unearthed soil/sand. (is now currently 9.6 Celsius - I actually like these temps - but now looking forward to things warming up for my new garden) By the way Dahila - this part of winter does seem to keep the soil from planting seed, however yes to all year around with plants having previously been established before winter is all. - It's a good time for me to be setting the bed and using a bit of plastic to warm the soil would be more than enough for a few seedlings during this colder time - (I think I will be avoiding all local produce and purchasing everything heritage listed.

Srry Cully - just missed you ... only just saw now your chat message- re-editing as I do :) We catch up soon my friend.

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I don't know Dahila ... I've been putting off that spiritual topic I want to contemplate. It's no more than my typical highlights on what's fucked up with the world, but more so ... coming to accept my own fate amongst it all without the incessant need to conqueror such things with a personalized plan based on goal setting - but rather something that comes about naturally through finding space, where there is none - finding quiet, where there is none and finding no pain, where there is tones! Indeed - what a thought - How blissful such an experience it is to find such moments amongst the storm. This is how I seek to quell my itch this very day. Flare Ups will happen as they happen - I believe learning to suffer those inflamed periods with those natural means such as Oat Water and cooling the areas good enough - as opposed to any kind of steroid cream.

The quick fix - I guess is my point ... the sugar and spice. It's bee rather good to be bland - or so I have found for myself. One quarter or a teas spoon of honey is now quite very sweet in my tea - Just nibbling on some cranberries now does the trick. I think now just what PIGS we humans really be. Actually - I reject the comparison to animals as they be so much more deserving of live than we. How pathetic we have become - So selfish in all we do and how we be.

I love the exertion in my garden - the early stages of turning the soil - I later love watching the plants grow. I say not MINE as this whole concepts on ownage is as screwed as the term WORK as it has come to be. I watch THE plants grow and marvel at such a cycle as it be. Dawkins and Hitchens make obvious sense when it comes to the fallibility of religion itself - but to solely sit on one wagon alone is not enough and quite devoid of hope in a hopeless situation. I remain open in not just wonderment - but yearn to connect with what is fast becoming lost - nature in all it's forms ... not many forms left ... much is replaced with man made/ manipulated/ altered states.

My end I seek is itself a spiritual quest - in the accepting of noting more I wish to gain or want - to simply no longer be a participant of this fallacy they call society and more so boldly claimed - Civil at that ... How I year to be no more than the wild blade of grass untouched - left alone to bask on both the moonlight and sun - to bare the cold with the heat ... to just be with no more need than do what comes naturally. Once nature has gone - we shall all be dead - but many fail to see the sickness or find it aqueduct that our painful demise be simply accepted as a diseased plant with a fake slower on top of the wilted stem.

The universe will see such a sick species pulled from the plot - long before the sun sees such a garden incinerated - We will be the death of ourselves and there will be no New Earth except in another star system far far away - lest another galaxy and or mutliverse. Not knowing need not be fearful - as fear itself is spawned from mans greed to have more than what already is and or known - fuck man! - it's better to be dead than ruled! - the sooner we can see this, the sooner we can be free.

I go now and just be and feel what little there is to be had - and in that I warm what little is left - Fuck Mans Goals - Mans Priority - Fuck everything that has ever come form Man - Fuck their Imagery imprinted Fear Mongering Gods as well - Fuck the Masters and Fuck the Lords and fuck the slaves as well ... Fuck their Wars ... Fuck that whole story ... fuck that story book ... I give it no power over me -

The birds await me Dahila - Be seeing you in my Blog. ;)

Rant done - over and out!