tryingtobreathe
06-11-2014, 11:49 PM
So this is my life in a nutshell. I am 22 almost 23 and have been dealing with anxiety and depression since I was 13. Back then I was not aware of the anxiety just the depression and we just that it was a situation thing considering we moved halfway around the us the summer before high school. When I was 18 I just felt so much despair that I knew I couldn't continue this way and sought out the help of a counselor. After spending 2 hours a week for 4 months I was officially diagnosed with Gad worth underlying depressing and moderate symptoms of Sad. We worked together every week and dealt with many things until I felt that I was finally getting myself where I wanted to be. About a year and a half ago things just felt stagnant and we discussed finally going on medication. I started on effexor xr 37.5 mg. That when things were getting better but we ended up increasing it to 75 mg about 9 months ago. And now I am here. I am to the point that I see my counselor when it seems necessary and these last few days seem blah. I just can't seem to describe it to others that do not suffer from anxiety, because no matter what I say it seems like there is always a rebuttal. Some say I need to just not claim anxiety and pray and read the bible because it is the devil. Others say that is just my feelings and I just need to learn to not let things effect me so much, or I am you emotional. My "favorite" had to be when others say ' oh I know how you feel, I get the same way before a test '. They don't understand that I wish everyday that I didn't have to deal with it. I wish that I didn't know the feeling that I need to take the medication so can feel somewhat normal. I know that currently it is my hormones effecting my anxiety and making it go into overdrive but I still have those thoughts and feelings and I just need to talk to someone that truly understand.