ScrewAnxiety
06-09-2014, 08:48 PM
i am 29 years old healthy individual, not overweight, do not smoke, eat very healthy for the most part, blood pressure is perfect. I perform extensive cardio exercises daily - lots of running and especially cycling. the other day i cycled for about 40 miles and at times when i go up the hill and i really push it i feel my heart is going to jump out of my chest but i am not afraid of that and thinking it is perfectly normal and how it should be. I do however have a lot going on in my personal life because at times it gets hectic when i try to balance things between my full time job, personal business and also things at home with my family. I do drink plenty of coffee throughout the day (mostly in the morning), drink alcohol socially with my friends clients, etc (on weekends mostly), can have a cigar once in a while and even weed once in a while. Basically i allow myself a number of things but not excessively, just a typical normal guy. I have been getting the following things lately:
- During the moment when I'm about to fall asleep i tend to concentrate on my heart beats and my breathing and for some reason i get to the point that i feel like my breathing is going to stop and i get a sudden wake up jolt going through my body and it scares the hell out of me. i go through a good number of cycles before i pass out and sometimes it can take a while until maybe 3-4 in the morning and then i don't get enough sleep. I do sleep very deeply however once i finally pass out.
- i constantly have a fear of loosing pulse and i try to feel it and measure it like 50 times a day. i read that normal pulse is between 60-100 but when i am in bed my pulse is somewhere in mid 50 or sometimes it can get below and it scares the hell out of me.
- while all of this is happening i get a feeling i am going to get a heart attack and die.
- today at work i got one of those jolts and right after i think i had my first real attack because i felt lightheaded, dizzy, received hot flashes and could not sit still and had to fidget all the time. i was at the client and couldn't concentrate on my work and didn't get much done at all and it made me really mad and angry but i couldn't control it.
the thing is,guys, i do realize all this is mental because i know i am in superb physical shape since i can cycle 40 miles no problem on my road bike and can hike up Mt. Washington in NH and feeling perfectly fine after, but when i get these crazy stupid thoughts about my pulse and these weird jolts at night and attacks at work like today i CANT CONTROL IT and i feel like this shit is getting deeper and starts taking tolls on me.
I just want to be normal guy again. going to the doctor and taking pills is UNACCEPTABLE to me because i know i am perfectly fine physically. I do want to hang out with my friends, i do want to drink my coffee in the morning, i do want to go out for drinks with my clients and buddies. i just need to learn how to control this stupid thing.
PLEASE HELP.
- During the moment when I'm about to fall asleep i tend to concentrate on my heart beats and my breathing and for some reason i get to the point that i feel like my breathing is going to stop and i get a sudden wake up jolt going through my body and it scares the hell out of me. i go through a good number of cycles before i pass out and sometimes it can take a while until maybe 3-4 in the morning and then i don't get enough sleep. I do sleep very deeply however once i finally pass out.
- i constantly have a fear of loosing pulse and i try to feel it and measure it like 50 times a day. i read that normal pulse is between 60-100 but when i am in bed my pulse is somewhere in mid 50 or sometimes it can get below and it scares the hell out of me.
- while all of this is happening i get a feeling i am going to get a heart attack and die.
- today at work i got one of those jolts and right after i think i had my first real attack because i felt lightheaded, dizzy, received hot flashes and could not sit still and had to fidget all the time. i was at the client and couldn't concentrate on my work and didn't get much done at all and it made me really mad and angry but i couldn't control it.
the thing is,guys, i do realize all this is mental because i know i am in superb physical shape since i can cycle 40 miles no problem on my road bike and can hike up Mt. Washington in NH and feeling perfectly fine after, but when i get these crazy stupid thoughts about my pulse and these weird jolts at night and attacks at work like today i CANT CONTROL IT and i feel like this shit is getting deeper and starts taking tolls on me.
I just want to be normal guy again. going to the doctor and taking pills is UNACCEPTABLE to me because i know i am perfectly fine physically. I do want to hang out with my friends, i do want to drink my coffee in the morning, i do want to go out for drinks with my clients and buddies. i just need to learn how to control this stupid thing.
PLEASE HELP.