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willheal
05-27-2014, 08:26 AM
Getting a doctor to even prescribe this anymore is getting really hard. I know it's not supposed to work long-term either, but here's my thing (long post, sorry, I'll try to make it interesting):

I have been diagnosed with generalized anxiety, panic disorder, dissociative disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, high BP, peripheral neuropathy. I've been told I probably have sleep disorders but never completed a sleep study (they said they suspected insomnia, narcolepsy)--they prescribed me valium to help me sleep when I was 16-ish but I never took it because the teensy dosage of Xanax they gave me helped both my anxiety and sleep issues simultaneously.

Now I'm 28 & I've been on Paxil, Zoloft, Prozac with no effect (Well, they reduced my social anxiety but I don't have that anymore). I've given up on SSRI/SNRIs. I was prescribed Depakote and Gabapentin but was afraid to try them since my mother had to be hospitalized after taking them. I suspect one of these would probably work for reasons I'll go into, but *eehhhh*.

The kicker here is: When I take between 0.25mg to 0.5mg of Xanax a DAY (dose depending on severity) literally everything that I listed above does not affect me anymore. Even after just 1 week, the intrusive thoughts from OCD even quiet down, my medical fears vanish, my hypochondria is gone! I feel normal. It's such a stark change.

ALSO interesting is that Phenibut (GABA derivative) provides similar relief in a pinch, but is only effective for a day or so before it starts having the reverse effect. I avoid it now.

The problem is of course Xanax loses effectiveness over time. Over a year I will take 1mg twice per day. I'd been off it for a while now, so 0.5 is more than enough for me. On top of this, doctors don't want to prescribe it because of it's addictiveness. Understandable, I hear it's worse than heroin in some cases. But it makes it so difficult for me to get even temporary relief. Damn the war on drugs.

So my questions:

I'm assuming klonopin or something would probably work similarly and be less addictive, but would a doctor be willing to prescribe this for the long term? Is Xanax XR still around? Is there some way I can take this benzo long-term without the pain of physical addiction?

Also it's hard not to speculate--but all of my conditions seem to be related to my nervous system being stuck in high gear. I'm uncomfortably sensitive to smells, sounds, etc. Have to take lower dosages of medicine that cross the BBB. I have a lot of cases of OCD in my family. My cousin has epilepsy. And the only medication that seems to work so far are these benzos, which all act by lowering the electrical potential of my neurons. Maybe there's a better class of drugs out there for me? Was the doctor on the right track when he wanted me to be on Depakote and Neurontin (usually for seizures)? Is there something less risky for me?

Welp this was a long one but thanks for reading!!

Anne1221
05-27-2014, 09:46 AM
Not sure if it was a good thing or a bad thing, but I know a guy who took Klonopin for years and years. He was addicted to it, but he didn't care because it was so helpful. My friend takes Klonopin for sleep and her doctor never tells her she needs to get off of it.

willheal
05-28-2014, 04:53 PM
I suppose it wouldn't really hurt to be on it really long would it? Aside from having to take more and more over time... I only take it as I need it though, not every 8 hours like they suggest. It's just hard to get anyone to prescribe it to me anymore. My first prescription for it was before they started getting scared about it. The doctor gave the 16-year old me 90 tablets! It lasted me over a year. Now 28-year-old me is lucky if I can get more than 16 at a time. Every doctor and therapist I've seen lately just goes off about it says the same thing (It's addictive, it will change your life, etc.,) like they had to memorize a recording about the dangers of Xanax. But it's the only thing that helps, and I don't have any history of dependency issues.

Geeze.

Kuma
05-29-2014, 01:03 PM
Xanax works pretty well for me, but I take only .25mg and even then only VERY rarely -- like twice a year or so. But I can see why people use it more often -- it can take the edge off when nothing else seems to work (at least for me).

But if I were going to use something longer term, I would (personally speaking) try to make it something other than a benzo. Maybe an SSRI or a beta blocker.

Of course, each of us has to make his/her own decisions (with medical advice), but I figure if the docs are very reluctant to prescribe Xanax for regular use, there's probably a reason for that.

Best wishes, Kuma*


* I am not a medical professional and nothing I write is medical advice.