Hello

[kotoba]

I've been pondering the thought of registering here for weeks now. Just because I wasn't sure what the reaction of the community would be to see such a young user claim they have anxiety. Well, to be honest I'm not sure what I have.

My story.
I'm 17 years of age from England. About a month ago i was at the pub having a drink with friends, just the usual night out really. I had two pints and idk what it was but something in my head wasnt feeling right and it wasn't exactly a drunk feeling. So i decided to stop and come home. Of course i had a little bit of light headedness going on but certainly nothing 2 pints in 30 miniutes wouldn't deliver. So i came home, went upstairs to my room and sat on facebook for an hour.

At this point it was about 12:30am and i decided to come off and get to bed. The moment i lay in bed i began shaking as if i was cold. But i wasnt cold. It seemed the more i acknowledged this shaking the worse it got. I thought i was having a form of heart attack. Scared out of my mind i forced myself out of bed and stumbled into my parents room where i couldn't even call their name. I had to hit the covers. I said help with a jittery mouth as this shaking had control over my entire body. After being put back to bed by my mum i gradually began to stop shaking.
It took about 30 minutes and i had no idea what triggered this.

Waking up the next day. Nothing felt the same. I felt so disconnected from everything. I couldnt focus on anything. It felt like i was stuck in a constant daydream. Im thinking "could beer have really done this to me?".. it was nonesense.. all too much for my mind to comprehend at the time. Explaining to my parents how i felt was impossible.. they just had no idea, no matter how accurately i explained it.

That day was saturday and we booked a doctors appointment for monday. On the sunday the feelings of 24/7 disconnected from the world persisted. I thought this could be a form of brain damage. I usually have a coffee in the mornings so i thought id try and get into my old routine and maybe this would sort itselt out. The moment i took the first sip of the coffee my body was immediately overwhelmed with this feeling of dread and confusion again. I thought "its the coffee!" ... unsure and dillusional i took one more sip to confirm it and yes i was right. I saw myself in yet another shaking fit. I was starting to get very scared now.

After googling about my symptoms and what i was feeling i found that caffeine stimulates anxiety panic attacks... i thought "how could i have anxiety? Im not anxious about anything..".

Anyway i've felt like this for a month staight now. Doctors called it anxiety.

I've noticed i relate to the symptoms of depersonalization and derealisation also. I dont know if i can mentally cope like this. Its definitely gotten better. Ive not had an attack for almost a week now. But my mind still feels ill. I have this constant foggy head. I feel as though im in a dream world. How does this happen from two pints of beer? Ive stopped drinking entirely now and only drink camomile tea and water.

How long will this last? I feel like im going insane? And no one understands it other than myself. I wake up with the thought of "whats the point"...what if this gets suicidal? Im starting to worry. Breathing is also a problem. Im constantly flemming up mucus and i have a constant blocked nose and heavy heart.

Anyway if anyone has read this far id be surprised... i just want to go back to normal.

[JohnC]

Hi Kotoba,
I am at work so I must be brief. Anxiety started for me at a young age. Who really knows what triggers it for sure. The one thing I do know is that this is a good place to get some answers and some support. TRY not to Google to much of the symptoms as it rarely helps although we all do it. Hang in there and I will try back this evening. In the mean time look around the site and do some reading.
P.S. I did read your whole post. LOL

[superchick22684]

Kotoba,
Welcome to the forum. I'm not at all bothered by the fact that you say your 17 and have anxiety. I think anxiety can hit a person at any age really. I didn't really develop severe anxiety until I was about 20 but I did notice things when I was younger that looking back now were signs that I did have anxious tendencies. One of my biggest recommendations for you is that you not do web searches on anxiety because if your anything like me that will just make the anxiety worse or convince you that you have another disease/disorder. When I first developed severe anxiety I was like you and didn't understand how I could have anxiety because I didn't really have anything to be anxious about. I've only been on the forum for a few week but this is a great place to get answer to some of your questions and support from others with anxiety. Also, I read your entire post.

[kotoba]

Thank you both. You're being very supportive. I know it must be weird having anxiety and then reading an essay about someone elses problems. I just didn't know who to turn to. I wouldn't have registered unless it was a last resort as the last thing I want to do is express my feelings over the internet for the world to see. I just want to know it is anxiety and that I've got the potential to feel mentally stable and this isn't permanent damage to my brain or something. I've had pretty bad heart pains and I'm putting it down to the worry and anxiety because I've had 3 ECG's and my heart appears to all be in order. It's all a lot to take in out of the blue.

[daisydoo17]

I had a similar experience. Went to book club, went home, went to sleep. Woke up in the middle of the night unable to breathe, swallow, my heart going a mile a minute. Went to the ER, had ekg, blood work, followed up with a cardiologist and had an echo, that was fine, now I'm seeing a physicatrist and my symptoms seem to be getting worse. I just want it to stop.