meli26
04-17-2014, 11:48 AM
So, I've been very ok for the last 5 days I've been fighting this demon inside of me pretty well and I do see a difference with my bf since 5 days now ( I dunno if u remember my posts about my anxiety of abandonment with my bf) but last night the demon came back to haunt me and put me in a bad mood again. At 3am I just got hit by this wave of questions about y my bf never looks like he wants to have sex with me. He never initiates anything, ever unless I give him a sort of '' hint'' that it's about time we have sex. So I confronted him about it again for the third time at 3am and of course it turned out in a heated discussion.
Today im having a terrible day bc of that discussion last night and bc he never initiates anything n doesn't look like he ever wants to have sex I feel like it's bc of my body or the way I look. I have a pretty decent body, I'm not fat or anything, the only body part I'm subconscious about is my belly as I had a baby 4 years ago and so I have stretch marks etc.. Other than that ppl tell me all the time what an amazing body I have but in my head I'm thinking maybe he's like that bc he doesn't like how I look naked ? I dunno but I'm having a terrible day today mostly bc of that.
Sorry needed to vent.
Today im having a terrible day bc of that discussion last night and bc he never initiates anything n doesn't look like he ever wants to have sex I feel like it's bc of my body or the way I look. I have a pretty decent body, I'm not fat or anything, the only body part I'm subconscious about is my belly as I had a baby 4 years ago and so I have stretch marks etc.. Other than that ppl tell me all the time what an amazing body I have but in my head I'm thinking maybe he's like that bc he doesn't like how I look naked ? I dunno but I'm having a terrible day today mostly bc of that.
Sorry needed to vent.