muchosanxious
04-24-2008, 07:39 AM
I've read the thread on intrusive thoughts and also the list of symptoms of anxiety and I'm grateful its not just me.
Hello to everyone by the way.
I've had intrusive thoughts for a few months now, which all stemmed from depression and the feeling that everything was rubbish and nothing was going to get better. Then I started questioning my relationship for no reason. Its perfect, as far as perfect can go, he loves me and I love him and its the first time I've been in love so I'm still not sure how to handle things. But everything I did I started asking myself why I was doing it until I began analysing everything. Now every movement I make I ask if I'm doing this because I love my boyfriend or not. I panic at the thought of us splitting up, at the thought of me not loving him anymore, which sometimes I feel like I don't because all I can do is panic. I have to keep telling myself that these thoughts aren't real and my anxiety is taking over. I constantly focus on negative points and obssess about my anxiety. Then I think I'm never going to get better and then panic some more. I understand the feeling of 50,000 thoughts running around your head at once. Once an intrusive thought comes into my head I have to fight to rationalise it or to subdue it but they are so intense that its hard to do.
I feel completely unsettled in my relationship because I'm constantly waiting for either something bad to happen or for the anxiety to come on. I feel like I'm going round in circles, analysing the same things over and over and I get to the point where I'm sick of thinking about my boyfriend and then I get really ratty with him. Then I start to panic that we're going to have a bad relationship or that I don't love him because I'm snapping at him.
Its a vicious circle.
Help!!!!!
Hello to everyone by the way.
I've had intrusive thoughts for a few months now, which all stemmed from depression and the feeling that everything was rubbish and nothing was going to get better. Then I started questioning my relationship for no reason. Its perfect, as far as perfect can go, he loves me and I love him and its the first time I've been in love so I'm still not sure how to handle things. But everything I did I started asking myself why I was doing it until I began analysing everything. Now every movement I make I ask if I'm doing this because I love my boyfriend or not. I panic at the thought of us splitting up, at the thought of me not loving him anymore, which sometimes I feel like I don't because all I can do is panic. I have to keep telling myself that these thoughts aren't real and my anxiety is taking over. I constantly focus on negative points and obssess about my anxiety. Then I think I'm never going to get better and then panic some more. I understand the feeling of 50,000 thoughts running around your head at once. Once an intrusive thought comes into my head I have to fight to rationalise it or to subdue it but they are so intense that its hard to do.
I feel completely unsettled in my relationship because I'm constantly waiting for either something bad to happen or for the anxiety to come on. I feel like I'm going round in circles, analysing the same things over and over and I get to the point where I'm sick of thinking about my boyfriend and then I get really ratty with him. Then I start to panic that we're going to have a bad relationship or that I don't love him because I'm snapping at him.
Its a vicious circle.
Help!!!!!