After5hock
03-28-2014, 12:10 PM
So I've never really read anything on agoraphobia until this post that I just read. This lady is in a similar situation, but I'd say her's is more 'advanced'. So I'm just wondering of it possible that I have underlying agoraphobia that may need addressed.. So here it goes..
I avoid going to places by myself, especially if it's crowded.. and if it is crowded, it's doesn't matter who I'm with, I get a very uncomfortable feeling like I could suffocate (like the start of an attack for me) I've always been nervous and uncomfortable, but almost three years ago I started getting the unsettling attack feeling which makes me eve more uncomfortable because I get scared that people will notice. I avoid hanging out with friend (especially 1on1) because I don't know what to say/do. Over half of the time I wouldn't talk very much because I don't know how to have a normal conversation without almost freaking out. Its not that I don't want to do these things, it's that I can't. I'm terrified of what could happen. I know the fear of going places by myself has a lot to do with my past and should just let it go.. but I don't know how to do that either. I've been kidnap, raped, molested, and even sold.. just the thought of going somewhere alone makes my heart speed up. In May, I went to Las Vegas with my mom, brother, and his wife, I don't think that I've ever been more scared of a pace in my life. I stayed in our hotel room 2 out of the 3 days. I just wanted to be somewhere familiar. I don't mind being home where it's safe, but I don't want to be a shut-in either.
I avoid going to places by myself, especially if it's crowded.. and if it is crowded, it's doesn't matter who I'm with, I get a very uncomfortable feeling like I could suffocate (like the start of an attack for me) I've always been nervous and uncomfortable, but almost three years ago I started getting the unsettling attack feeling which makes me eve more uncomfortable because I get scared that people will notice. I avoid hanging out with friend (especially 1on1) because I don't know what to say/do. Over half of the time I wouldn't talk very much because I don't know how to have a normal conversation without almost freaking out. Its not that I don't want to do these things, it's that I can't. I'm terrified of what could happen. I know the fear of going places by myself has a lot to do with my past and should just let it go.. but I don't know how to do that either. I've been kidnap, raped, molested, and even sold.. just the thought of going somewhere alone makes my heart speed up. In May, I went to Las Vegas with my mom, brother, and his wife, I don't think that I've ever been more scared of a pace in my life. I stayed in our hotel room 2 out of the 3 days. I just wanted to be somewhere familiar. I don't mind being home where it's safe, but I don't want to be a shut-in either.