Mr.Andrew
03-27-2014, 11:17 PM
Hey,
My name is Andrew.
From the outside, I seem pretty normal. Normal looking, relatively normal temperament. Of course, there are some parts of my life that were obvious problems, but having sorted most of them out Im left with some psych issues that I don't like telling my acquaintances about.
These issues aren't particularly affecting the "functional" aspect of my life. I can get out of bed, i can go to work, I can go to the store to buy groceries. Hell, at this point in my "recovery" i can even entertain a select few people at my house. But, only at my house. I avoid large social gatherings in uncomfortable territory at all costs. Im scared ill just twitch up and freak everyone out.
So, I just socially limit myself, trying to define myself through non-social activities.
Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes, I say fuck it, and completely erase my life to start over. Quit my job, terminate all my relationships. It seems like every three months i have a melt down.
Regardless....I know I'm heading in the right direction. Im actively trying to overcome my neroticism, not waiting for a magic cure (although some medicines do help).
So, that about all there is to it.
My name is Andrew.
From the outside, I seem pretty normal. Normal looking, relatively normal temperament. Of course, there are some parts of my life that were obvious problems, but having sorted most of them out Im left with some psych issues that I don't like telling my acquaintances about.
These issues aren't particularly affecting the "functional" aspect of my life. I can get out of bed, i can go to work, I can go to the store to buy groceries. Hell, at this point in my "recovery" i can even entertain a select few people at my house. But, only at my house. I avoid large social gatherings in uncomfortable territory at all costs. Im scared ill just twitch up and freak everyone out.
So, I just socially limit myself, trying to define myself through non-social activities.
Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes, I say fuck it, and completely erase my life to start over. Quit my job, terminate all my relationships. It seems like every three months i have a melt down.
Regardless....I know I'm heading in the right direction. Im actively trying to overcome my neroticism, not waiting for a magic cure (although some medicines do help).
So, that about all there is to it.