LaLa-Land
03-13-2014, 07:26 PM
Hello all,
I'm new to the forum, but definitely not new to anxiety. I've had anxiety disorder, specifically GAD, for 18 years with on and off relapses in between.
Recently, I'm going through another relapse that originally stems from a car accident I was involved in November. It was minor, and kind of silly in all honesty, and not my fault, but I obsessed for weeks that it was my fault. Ended up getting sick with a bad flu and had to take medicine (which I also have a bad med phobia). Then my vehicle's battery died and I swore up and down that I HAD to get rid of the van because it was triggering some very bad anxiety.
Then... see there was a lot that made my mind finally scream "mercy"... during the Christmas season is when the intrusive OCD thoughts began. And depression.
And now I'm here.
One thing I know I need to do is break free of my med phobia. 18 years is soooo long without medication and I'm soooo tired of this same loop-d-loop. Another thing I need to do is continue with my therapy. I'm currently participating in Dialectical Behavior Therapy and mindfulness practices to quiet my anxious thoughts and worries. Hopefully I can stick with it forever, even after (fingers crossed) medication therapy.
Unfortunately, my therapist doesn't believe me when I tell her I have OCD obsessive thoughts (no one does, except for the my old therapist that told me that). I'm debating finding a new therapist, but I've been through that loop a millions times too.
So anyway, hi!
I'm new to the forum, but definitely not new to anxiety. I've had anxiety disorder, specifically GAD, for 18 years with on and off relapses in between.
Recently, I'm going through another relapse that originally stems from a car accident I was involved in November. It was minor, and kind of silly in all honesty, and not my fault, but I obsessed for weeks that it was my fault. Ended up getting sick with a bad flu and had to take medicine (which I also have a bad med phobia). Then my vehicle's battery died and I swore up and down that I HAD to get rid of the van because it was triggering some very bad anxiety.
Then... see there was a lot that made my mind finally scream "mercy"... during the Christmas season is when the intrusive OCD thoughts began. And depression.
And now I'm here.
One thing I know I need to do is break free of my med phobia. 18 years is soooo long without medication and I'm soooo tired of this same loop-d-loop. Another thing I need to do is continue with my therapy. I'm currently participating in Dialectical Behavior Therapy and mindfulness practices to quiet my anxious thoughts and worries. Hopefully I can stick with it forever, even after (fingers crossed) medication therapy.
Unfortunately, my therapist doesn't believe me when I tell her I have OCD obsessive thoughts (no one does, except for the my old therapist that told me that). I'm debating finding a new therapist, but I've been through that loop a millions times too.
So anyway, hi!