Ijustwantnormal
03-11-2014, 10:17 PM
Hey guys. I have been having some anxiety issues lately and they seem to be getting worse. I was at the doctors again today to check out some new symptoms. I have been feeling a bit numb, not so much numb but at times my left leg feels like it isn't attached to my body. It still keeps all it's strength but just feels weird. I tend to really focus on it as well and what could be causing it and freak out. Tonight I keep thinking i might be bleeding internally and was scared I was going to pass out and die. Now this fear comes from having acid reflux for the last couple of months roughly, and my doctor today examined my stomach and said that i was fine. No hint of anything abnormal at all. she thinks everything is related to stress. This would be reassuring or should be, but I was a bit freaked because the doctor I saw today was quite old and for some reason I was scared she may not be 100%. She said my numbness wasnt coming from bleeding as I had passed no blood either vomit or otherwise. I then started to fear as I train so much with heavy weights that it may be a disk herniation and I may have nerve damage. Although I still have full strength and no pain so this is unlikely in fairness. I had been feeling tightness in my throat for the last few weeks off and on and the doctor said this was also from anxiety as it was sue to muscle tension. I am trying my best to believe I am ok but i just wanted to come on here and vent a little and maybe get some advice. I was asked today if I wanted meds for my anxiety but I said I'd rather not. The doctor felt they would only slow me down and I'd be better without them. I am just really sick of getting so scared like this. I was fine for the last 3 years with no real anxiety issues except the odd few hours of panic here and there related to something and I want to get back to that. To add to my description, I am 24 years old with a very healthy medical history and my family history is also clean of everything. One doctor when this started with my acid reflux said that if it keeps up I may need a scope to see whats up. This freaked me out as I keep going through worst case scenarios in my head since then. The old doctor today told me since I haven't lost weight ( actually I have put on some more muscle mass) and am only 24 an endoscopy is unnecessary and will only make me more anxious as I would have to wait for it for a while. I have no doubt she is right on a logical and scientific basis but my main fear is that I have cancer or something else dangerous. I know from my own studies that the chances of someone my age developing a cancer related to GORD are beyond miniscule but it scares me none the less. I was doing really well up until the end of last week too. I had pulled most of the way out of my problem then all of a sudden straight back down worse than ever. Right now as I type the left side of my head feels a bit numb, not actually numb but tingly I suppose and my legs feel oddly far away if that makes sense. I even woke up today with the back of my throat feeling cold and numb. My doctor wasnt at all worried and said it was stress and when she looked at my throat it was fine. Anyway sorry for the long post. If anyone could please help me get my head back on straight I would be delighted. Thanks for reading this anyway.