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bittersweetgirl
03-04-2014, 04:09 PM
So I paid out of pocket for a private therapist this morning. She made me feel kind of bad. She apologized for being direct, but said that's her style. She did say "yes" when I asked if my current issues are likely caused by childhood issues - heck, if she's going to be that straightforward, I wanted her to tell me if I'm being a drama queen or if this really is what's going on. I will likely go back next week, and tell her about my triggers, coming from her (she said I can do that).

Then I went to my outpatient program. It kind of helped... got some ideas about how to handle evening anxiety, "radical acceptance", and got some really nice, supportive comments from another person in the program that cheered me up a lot. And also - got ideas on how to handle Facebook issues. Ha! I'm not alone. I get upset when someone talks about my posts and makes fun of them in person, but they NEVER post a damn thing themselves or comment. So I'm blocking them from my page (changing my privacy settings) from here on out :). It's practice for learning to set my boundaries with people without having to become someone I'm not (I'm sensitive and thin-skinned, but that doesn't mean I have to turn into a thick-skinned person who doesn't care - because that's NOT me - I DO care). Okay, so maybe it wasn't a total bust.

And HOLY GOD - I increased my dosage of Wellbutrin from 150 mg to 300. I took the second dose at the program just in case there were issues. I did have to see the nurse later because I got nauseous and super-hyper... but I feel pretty darn good mentally!! If I can get through this initial craziness of adapting to the drug, maybe this will snap me out of my misery (it's still there, but I'm feeling distant from it now).

Anyway - posting this because it's been a big day of therapy and med changes and I had to let it out, and I thought maybe there's even something here that might be of use to someone :)

petrified
03-04-2014, 04:40 PM
[QUOTE="bittersweetgirl;168051"] It's practice for learning to set my boundaries with people without having to become someone I'm not (I'm sensitive and thin-skinned, but that doesn't mean I have to turn into a thick-skinned person who doesn't care - because that's NOT me - I DO care). Okay, so maybe it wasn't a total bust.

I love this advice bittersweet and I could really do with trying it.
It really sounds like you have made good progress today :-)

Not sure why my comment is in your quote :-/

bittersweetgirl
03-04-2014, 05:00 PM
Thanks everyone, and I will look for the Wellbutrin thread later tonight - out grocery shopping now. Gotta burn off this Wellbutrin energy!! :)

bittersweetgirl
03-04-2014, 07:54 PM
Sounds like I better start at 150 lols

Yep!! I think the "standard" dose is 300 mg, and I'm not sure where doctors usually start - but I can tell you that I go through the roof if I start at 300! I'm finally coming down from this increase now. I do think I need the higher dose - the 150 wasn't doing it for me anymore.

It can cause increased anxiety for some ... but for me it helps with obsessive thoughts and therefore less anxiety (I don't have OCD - just those anxiety repetitive thoughts). It also gives me an energy boost to accomplish things so I'm less anxious. However... one of the first times I took the 150 mg, I was immediately exhausted and knocked out cold for a long much-needed nap. Maybe just gave me enough anxiety relief to let me sleep, finally.

I really think it's one of the better meds out there. I know we're all different, but I think most people are pretty happy on WB? The side effects are far more acceptable.