Lostinthedark91
03-03-2014, 01:31 PM
Hi,
I'm new to this forum, I have been a member of a few before but the support always seems to dwindle out after a while.
Finding this site a bit difficult to use at the moment, not sure if I have already done this or not! I typed it all out then I was back on my page again, so I apologise if its on here twice!
A bit of information about me. I'm 22 and was first diagnosed with depression and anxiety when I was 13. I went through a lot through school and was always targeted because people had heard about my "illness" I felt like there was no hope for me and I wouldn't be around much longer. I had my own ways of coping, which weren't healthy and a few attempts to end it all. Luckily I am still here :) By the time I was 15 I was agoraphobic, I couldn't leave my house. I was scared and constantly having panic attacks. I felt completely alone. Eventually I managed to start CBT which to me was a life saver. I learnt how to control my anxiety which eased my depression. I started going out, talking to friends, meeting new people! By the time I was 19 I was pretty much "normal" just the rare attack which I got over quickly and it didn't bother me.
Last year I went to the doctor with dizzy spells and got told it was anxiety and she put me on meds. Biggest mistake of my life, within 10 days I had gone back 7 years! I stopped taking them as soon as I felt I was a threat to myself. But the damage was already done, I'd forgot all I learnt in the CBT sessions, my confidence in myself was gone. I have managed to bounce back quite well considering, but I'm still scared of having an attack. When I go out I think "What if I have an attack?" I usually talk myself into having one I think about it that much! I go to work, come home and sleep then go back to work. I worry too much about going out.
Last week I decided that this week was going to be the big step and I'm pushing myself now.
I will beat this again and I will stop feeling scared and threatened by anxiety! And I will not let it make me depressed! .. Easier said than done!!
It's always helped me talking with people who understand and are going through the same thing so I'm hoping it will be nice to get to know some of you. :) I'm not the most confident of people and sometimes struggle to talk but I will always listen :)
Chrissie x
I'm new to this forum, I have been a member of a few before but the support always seems to dwindle out after a while.
Finding this site a bit difficult to use at the moment, not sure if I have already done this or not! I typed it all out then I was back on my page again, so I apologise if its on here twice!
A bit of information about me. I'm 22 and was first diagnosed with depression and anxiety when I was 13. I went through a lot through school and was always targeted because people had heard about my "illness" I felt like there was no hope for me and I wouldn't be around much longer. I had my own ways of coping, which weren't healthy and a few attempts to end it all. Luckily I am still here :) By the time I was 15 I was agoraphobic, I couldn't leave my house. I was scared and constantly having panic attacks. I felt completely alone. Eventually I managed to start CBT which to me was a life saver. I learnt how to control my anxiety which eased my depression. I started going out, talking to friends, meeting new people! By the time I was 19 I was pretty much "normal" just the rare attack which I got over quickly and it didn't bother me.
Last year I went to the doctor with dizzy spells and got told it was anxiety and she put me on meds. Biggest mistake of my life, within 10 days I had gone back 7 years! I stopped taking them as soon as I felt I was a threat to myself. But the damage was already done, I'd forgot all I learnt in the CBT sessions, my confidence in myself was gone. I have managed to bounce back quite well considering, but I'm still scared of having an attack. When I go out I think "What if I have an attack?" I usually talk myself into having one I think about it that much! I go to work, come home and sleep then go back to work. I worry too much about going out.
Last week I decided that this week was going to be the big step and I'm pushing myself now.
I will beat this again and I will stop feeling scared and threatened by anxiety! And I will not let it make me depressed! .. Easier said than done!!
It's always helped me talking with people who understand and are going through the same thing so I'm hoping it will be nice to get to know some of you. :) I'm not the most confident of people and sometimes struggle to talk but I will always listen :)
Chrissie x